{"id":2096,"date":"2015-08-05T08:28:53","date_gmt":"2015-08-05T05:28:53","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/ziarulderimnic.ro\/?p=2096"},"modified":"2015-08-06T12:02:50","modified_gmt":"2015-08-06T09:02:50","slug":"zanganele-22","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/ziarulderimnic.ro\/?p=2096","title":{"rendered":"Z\u0103ng\u0103nele XCI"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"http:\/\/ziarulderimnic.ro\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/08\/image4.jpg\" data-rel=\"lightbox-image-0\" data-rl_title=\"\" data-rl_caption=\"\" title=\"\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"size-medium wp-image-2097 aligncenter lazyload\" data-src=\"http:\/\/ziarulderimnic.ro\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/08\/image4-300x255.jpg\" alt=\"image\" width=\"300\" height=\"255\" data-srcset=\"https:\/\/ziarulderimnic.ro\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/08\/image4-300x255.jpg 300w, https:\/\/ziarulderimnic.ro\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/08\/image4-900x764.jpg 900w, https:\/\/ziarulderimnic.ro\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/08\/image4.jpg 1000w\" data-sizes=\"(max-width: 300px) 100vw, 300px\" src=\"data:image\/gif;base64,R0lGODlhAQABAAAAACH5BAEKAAEALAAAAAABAAEAAAICTAEAOw==\" style=\"--smush-placeholder-width: 300px; --smush-placeholder-aspect-ratio: 300\/255;\" \/><noscript><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\" size-medium wp-image-2097 aligncenter\" src=\"http:\/\/ziarulderimnic.ro\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/08\/image4-300x255.jpg\" alt=\"image\" width=\"300\" height=\"255\" srcset=\"https:\/\/ziarulderimnic.ro\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/08\/image4-300x255.jpg 300w, https:\/\/ziarulderimnic.ro\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/08\/image4-900x764.jpg 900w, https:\/\/ziarulderimnic.ro\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/08\/image4.jpg 1000w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 300px) 100vw, 300px\" \/><\/noscript><\/a><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">N-am aflat cum este s\u0103 fii cineva, \u0219tiu \u00eens\u0103 ce \u00eenseamn\u0103 s\u0103 fii nimeni. Nici nu trebuie s\u0103 sim\u021bi cum este, las\u0103-i pe to\u021bi ceilal\u021bi&#8230;.<br \/>\nDublu sau nimic, iat\u0103 provocarea mea din ultimii ani. Adic\u0103 ori vin toate buluc, fie idei, fie lucru f\u0103cut din materie palpabil\u0103, ori nimic sau mai degrab\u0103 nimeni. Pe acesta \u00eel voi trata \u00een continuare. Cum exprimam aproape dezn\u0103d\u0103jduit \u00een a doua fraz\u0103, las\u0103-i pe to\u021bi ceilal\u021bi s\u0103 uite pur \u0219i simplu c\u0103 exi\u0219ti. \u00cen felul acesta ra\u021biunea ta va \u00eencepe s\u0103 dea \u00een mugur, s\u0103 se fac\u0103 floare \u0219i s\u0103 rodeasc\u0103, s\u0103 cheme la ordine faptele, rolurile, anii, secundele primare de sc\u00e2ncit instinctiv, aerul, \u00ee\u021bi prive\u0219ti pa\u0219ii care merg spre nic\u0103ieri, pui o perdea \u00een fa\u021ba ochilor \u0219i prive\u0219ti doar \u00een sine. \u00centreb\u0103rile n-au nici un sens, nu vei g\u0103si r\u0103spuns \u00een nimic, cu at\u00e2t mai pu\u021bin \u00een orice te \u00eenconjoar\u0103 \u0219i deloc \u00een tine, cel de acum. De aceea caut\u0103 sensul dint\u00e2i. Ascult\u0103 prima b\u0103taie de inim\u0103, urmeaz\u0103 fluxul sanguin p\u00e2n\u0103 \u00een pl\u0103m\u00e2ni, \u00eentoarce-te \u00een ea, mergi apoi p\u00e2n\u0103 la cap\u0103t de deget mic \u0219i revin-o acas\u0103, acolo unde primul spasm miocardic \u021bi-a dat via\u021b\u0103.<br \/>\nS\u0103-l doar\u0103 pe cel care a cunoscut gloria \u0219i a picat brusc \u00een bra\u021bele ignoran\u021bei, s\u0103 mai aib\u0103 putere s\u0103 revin\u0103, nu \u0219tiu, nu-mi pot \u00eenchipui, \u0219tiu doar cum este s\u0103 nu fi avut parte de bucuria unei c\u00e2t de mici i\u021biri de cap, \u0219tiu cum este s\u0103-\u021bi spun\u0103 to\u021bi c\u0103 e\u0219ti un nimeni sau s\u0103 nu spun\u0103 nici m\u0103car at\u00e2t. Le-ar p\u0103sa, te-ai putea g\u00e2ndi c\u0103 le e\u0219ti obstacol, s-ar r\u0103\u021boi la tine ca la \u00eent\u00e2iul du\u0219man, te-ar scuipa, te-ar \u0219terge de pe fa\u021ba p\u0103m\u00e2ntului doar ca s\u0103 te \u0219tie disp\u0103rut, s\u0103 se binedispun\u0103 de prima pozi\u021bie ob\u021binut\u0103 prin eliminarea ta. Mai r\u0103u dec\u00e2t s\u0103 fii du\u0219man este c\u00e2nd se face abstrac\u021bie de tine. S\u0103 nu fii sunat, s\u0103 devii invizibil pe strad\u0103, s\u0103 nu prime\u0219ti cioc\u0103nit \u00een poart\u0103, s\u0103 nu \u021bi se fac\u0103 strigare de la cel din urm\u0103 om, de la cel pe care nu \u021bi l-ai dorit vreodat\u0103, s\u0103 mori viu sau s\u0103 tr\u0103ie\u0219ti precum o mort\u0103ciune. S\u0103 devii minimal c\u00e2t particula cea mai mic\u0103 dintr-un atom, s\u0103 vie\u021buie\u0219ti dar s\u0103 nu \u0219tie nici naiba, s\u0103 fii om \u00een univers \u0219i s\u0103 fii singurul care \u0219tie.<br \/>\nExist\u0103 totu\u0219i un avantaj c\u00e2nd e\u0219ti invizibil. \u00cei po\u021bi privi pe to\u021bi cei din jur a\u0219a cum sunt. Cu scormoneli de deget \u00een nas, cu privirile \u00eencruntate \u0219i anoste, cu mi\u0219c\u0103ri de picioare haotice, cu m\u00e2ini ce parc\u0103 execut\u0103 mar\u0219uri de zile mari, cu toane, cu inocen\u021b\u0103 \u0219i nesim\u021bire, cu nebunie \u0219i furie, dar cel mai adesea po\u021bi ochi dincolo de aparen\u021be, \u00eei vezi despuia\u021bi p\u00e2n\u0103 la piele. Din moment ce tu nu semnifici nimic pentru ei, lucrurile se simplific\u0103. Nu mai ai parte de frustr\u0103ri, de g\u00e2nduri analitice, de \u00eentreb\u0103ri fiindc\u0103 r\u0103spunsul se g\u0103se\u0219te \u00een aer. Plute\u0219te \u00een fiecare respira\u021bie a celor ce trec pe strad\u0103 d\u00e2nd buzna peste tine, st\u0103 \u00een gura nedeschis\u0103 a celui ce nu-\u021bi r\u0103spunde la salut, \u00een emisia desfiin\u021batoare a celor ce \u0219terg cu tine pe jos \u0219i matur\u0103 podelele, exist\u0103 \u00een pneurile gata s\u0103 te fac\u0103 una cu asfaltul.<br \/>\nCelebritatea este acela\u0219i lucru cu anonimatul absolut. Persoana atins\u0103 de maximul recunoa\u0219terii devine imagine, o pat\u0103 de culoare creionat\u0103 cu cerneluri \u0219i acuarele din cele naturale sau virtuale, un tablou de idol s\u0103rutat de credincio\u0219i, un deziderat de neatins, omul de sub masca divinizatului, imperfecta form\u0103 retu\u0219at\u0103 aleas\u0103 drept model pentru idealuri iluzorii, doar un biet candidat la \u00eenapoierea \u00een primordial \u00een umanul cel dint\u00e2i. Risc\u0103 precum Chaplin odinioar\u0103 s\u0103 participe la un concurs de imita\u021bie a propriului personaj \u0219i s\u0103 ias\u0103 pe ultimul loc. Din acel moment este la fel ca mine, poate striga f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103-l aud\u0103 nimeni, poate z\u00e2mbi fiindc\u0103 nu molipse\u0219te pe nimeni cu bucuria lui, poate pl\u00e2nge lacrimile, ele nu \u00eentristeaz\u0103 \u0219i nu molipsesc de nefericire, poate muri a\u0219a cum tr\u0103ie\u0219te, doar pentru el.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>N-am aflat cum este s\u0103 fii cineva, \u0219tiu \u00eens\u0103 ce \u00eenseamn\u0103 s\u0103 fii nimeni. 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