{"id":20326,"date":"2023-02-10T21:24:29","date_gmt":"2023-02-10T18:24:29","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/ziarulderimnic.ro\/?p=20326"},"modified":"2023-02-10T21:24:29","modified_gmt":"2023-02-10T18:24:29","slug":"spatii-culturale-nr-86-5","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/ziarulderimnic.ro\/?p=20326","title":{"rendered":"Spa\u021bii culturale nr. 86 (5)"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><strong>Rodica BRETIN<\/strong><br \/>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/ziarulderimnic.ro\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/06\/bretin.jpg\" data-rel=\"lightbox-image-0\" data-rl_title=\"\" data-rl_caption=\"\" title=\"\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" data-src=\"https:\/\/ziarulderimnic.ro\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/06\/bretin.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"330\" height=\"450\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-18382 lazyload\" data-srcset=\"https:\/\/ziarulderimnic.ro\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/06\/bretin.jpg 330w, https:\/\/ziarulderimnic.ro\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/06\/bretin-220x300.jpg 220w\" data-sizes=\"(max-width: 330px) 100vw, 330px\" src=\"data:image\/gif;base64,R0lGODlhAQABAAAAACH5BAEKAAEALAAAAAABAAEAAAICTAEAOw==\" style=\"--smush-placeholder-width: 330px; --smush-placeholder-aspect-ratio: 330\/450;\" \/><noscript><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/ziarulderimnic.ro\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/06\/bretin.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"330\" height=\"450\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-18382\" srcset=\"https:\/\/ziarulderimnic.ro\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/06\/bretin.jpg 330w, https:\/\/ziarulderimnic.ro\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/06\/bretin-220x300.jpg 220w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 330px) 100vw, 330px\" \/><\/noscript><\/a><\/p>\n<p><strong>ADEV\u0102RUL CRONICARILOR <\/strong><\/p>\n<p>\u201eAlfred Rex Saxonum\u201d. Inscrip\u021bia de pe monezile de argint b\u0103tute \u00eentre 871 \u0219i 899 certific\u0103 faima postum\u0103 a lui Alfred cel Mare, considerat eliberatorul \u0219i unificatorul anglo-saxonilor. Datorit\u0103 lui, Anglia a supravie\u021buit pericolului danez \u2013 cel pu\u021bin a\u0219a se credea p\u00e2n\u0103 acum c\u00e2teva decenii. Dar a fost Alfred cu adev\u0103rat cea mai puternic\u0103 personalitate a Evului Mediu Timpuriu englez, pe plan politic, militar \u0219i administrativ? Eroul legendar ale c\u0103rui ispr\u0103vi erau c\u00e2ntate de menestreli \u00een castele, sate \u0219i ora\u0219e?<br \/>\nAlfred \u0219i-a \u00eenceput domnia cu o \u00eenfr\u00e2ngere \u0219i, cel pu\u021bin p\u00e2n\u0103 \u00een 878, a fost \u00een defensiv\u0103, mereu surprins de ini\u021biativele adversarului, g\u0103sind doar solu\u021bii de compromis sau l\u0103s\u00e2ndu-se purtat \u00een v\u00e2ltoarea evenimentelor pe care nu le putuse nici anticipa, nici controla. \u201eRegele tuturor saxonilor\u201d datoreaz\u0103 mult modului extrem de favorabil \u00een care a fost prezentat \u00een \u201eCronica anglo-saxon\u0103\u201d (\u00eenceput\u0103 din ini\u021biativa lui) \u0219i faptului c\u0103 biograful s\u0103u, Asser (care a scris, \u00een 893, \u201eVia\u021ba Regelui Alfred\u201d) \u00eei era prieten \u0219i admirator fervent.<br \/>\nTotu\u0219i, Asser este unul dintre pu\u021binii \u201ecronicari de r\u0103zboi\u201d care nu doar au scris despre istorie, ci au f\u0103cut-o, \u00een mla\u0219tinile unde se ascundea cu regele p\u0103r\u0103sit de to\u021bi, la asedii, pe c\u00e2mpurile de b\u0103t\u0103lie. Majoritatea istoricilor medievali, ca \u0219i cei de ast\u0103zi, se mul\u021bumeau s\u0103 adune m\u0103rturii, s\u0103 indexeze cronologic date, s\u0103 consemneze evenimente vechi ori \u00een desf\u0103\u0219urare. A fost cazul Venerabilului Beda, care a l\u0103sat posterit\u0103\u021bii o imagine destul de fidel\u0103 \u0219i complet\u0103 a Angliei a\u0219a cum fusese \u00eenainte de venirea vikingilor. Considerat primul istoric englez, Beda a scris despre \u201etot ce nu trebuie uitat\u201d, \u00eencep\u00e2nd din vremea lui Cezar \u0219i p\u00e2n\u0103 \u00een anul 731, de\u0219i nu a ie\u0219it niciodat\u0103 din izolarea m\u0103n\u0103stirilor Saint Peter din Wearmouth (Northumbria) \u0219i Saint Paul (Jarrow), ale c\u0103ror biblioteci reunite ajungeau la cinci sute de manuscrise. Cultura, inteligen\u021ba \u0219i obiectivitatea \u00eei compensau experien\u021ba de via\u021b\u0103 limitat\u0103. Astfel, \u00eentr-una<br \/>\ndin scrierile sale, Beda afirma f\u0103r\u0103 echivoc: \u201eP\u0103m\u00e2ntul este rotund ca o bil\u0103, nu plat ca un scut\u201c \u2013  declara\u021bie incendiar\u0103 pentru secolul opt al unui Ev Mediu tot mai \u00eentunecat (pentru idei similare, Nicolaj Kopernic, Giordano Bruno, Galileo Galilei, Francis Bacon, Leonardo da Vinci \u0219i Tycho Brahe au fost persecuta\u021bi de Inchizi\u021bie sute de ani mai t\u00e2rziu).<br \/>\nDiscipolii Venerabilului Beda au tr\u0103it \u00een vremuri nu la fel de potrivite pentru izolare \u0219i studiu, iar lec\u021bia pe care au deprins-o de la invadatorii veni\u021bi din Scandinavia a fost una singur\u0103: nu exist\u0103 ziduri destul de \u00eenalte, nici sanctuare destul de sacre ca s\u0103 \u00eei opreasc\u0103 pe r\u0103zboinicii Nordului. Mul\u021bi martori-cronicari au ars \u00eempreun\u0103 cu scrierile lor \u00een m\u0103n\u0103stirile jefuite \u0219i apoi incendiate. Manuscrisele salvate au fost multiplicate de copi\u0219ti, iar istoricii genera\u021biilor urm\u0103toare au \u00eencercat s\u0103 refac\u0103 din informa\u021biile fragmentare \u0219i, adesea, subiective, un tablou c\u00e2t mai veridic al perioadei vikinge \u00een Anglia.<br \/>\nSimeon din Durham a scris \u201eHistoria regum Anglorum et Dacorum\u201d, ce continu\u0103 cronologic istoria lui Beda. Autorul \u2013 care a ales via\u021ba monahal\u0103 \u00een 1083, \u00eent\u00e2i la m\u0103n\u0103stirea Jarrow, apoi la Durham \u2013 a \u201erelatat\u201d despre atacurile vikingilor de la Lindisfarne (794) \u0219i Jarrow (795), cu implicarea afectiv\u0103 a cuiva prezent la evenimente. \u00cens\u0103 cele dou\u0103 tragice episoade ale invaziei daneze au fost reconstituite de Simeon pe baza unor anale vechi de dou\u0103 secole!<br \/>\nUn alt istoric medieval interesat retrospectiv de perioada viking\u0103 a Angliei a fost Florence din Worcester, c\u0103lug\u0103r din secolul al XII-lea. A sa \u201eChronicon ex chronicis\u201d  (\u201eCronic\u0103 din cronici\u201d) \u2013 care \u00eencepe cu \u201eCrea\u021bia\u201c \u0219i se termin\u0103 \u00een 1117 \u2013 reprezint\u0103 o compila\u021bie dup\u0103 scrierile lui Asser, episcop de Sherborne, dup\u0103 eremitul irlandez Marianus Scotus \u0219i dup\u0103 o versiune ast\u0103zi disp\u0103rut\u0103 a \u201eCronicii anglo-saxone\u201d.<br \/>\nPotrivit unei tradi\u021bii larg r\u0103sp\u00e2ndite \u00een Evul Mediu, fiecare istoric plasa \u00eenceputul cronicii sale la \u201eFacerea Lumii\u201d, \u201edup\u0103 izgonirea primilor oameni, Adam \u0219i Eva, din Paradis\u201c sau m\u0103car \u201e\u00een zilele Potopului\u201d. Mai modest, Alredus (Alfred of Beverley) a pornit s\u0103 nareze evenimentele din \u201eAnnales sive Historia de gestis regum Britanniae\u201d (\u201eAnalele istoriei faptelor regilor Britaniei\u201d) \u00eencep\u00e2nd cu vremea lui Brutus \u0219i a redat istoria Angliei, trec\u00e2nd prin perioada invaziei daneze, p\u00e2n\u0103 \u00een 1129. Obiectiv\u0103 \u0219i realist\u0103, remarc\u00e2ndu-se prin precizie, cronica lui Alredus dateaz\u0103 din 1143, av\u00e2nd ca surse principale scrierile lui Geoffrey of Monmouth \u0219i Simeon din Durham.<br \/>\nPerioada viking\u0103 \u00een Anglia face parte din fragmentele temporale r\u0103mase \u00eentr-un con de umbr\u0103 al istoriei. Informa\u021biile scrise provenite de la martori direc\u021bi s-au pierdut, au fost distruse sau deteriorate. Dac\u0103 la asta se adaug\u0103 aportul personal al compilatorilor de mai t\u00e2rziu, se pune \u00eentrebarea: ce propor\u021bie de adev\u0103r con\u021bin, de fapt, cronicile? C\u00e2t\u0103 credibilitate poate fi acordat\u0103 unui cronicar ca Asser, ce slujea, \u00een primul r\u00e2nd, interesele regelui s\u0103u?<br \/>\nDac\u0103 viitorul poate fi considerat o ecua\u021bie cu un num\u0103r infinit de variabile, trecutul r\u0103m\u00e2ne o problem\u0103 de interpretare. Cronicarii nu se mul\u021bumeau s\u0103 expun\u0103 faptele, l\u0103s\u00e2nd posteritatea s\u0103 emit\u0103 judec\u0103\u021bi \u0219i concluzii. Manifestau adesea tendin\u021ba \u2013 absolut omeneasc\u0103 \u0219i explicabil\u0103 \u2013 de a altera realitatea: exagerau efectivele unei armate, num\u0103rul mor\u021bilor \u00eentr-o b\u0103t\u0103lie ori al cor\u0103biilor dintr-o flot\u0103 de r\u0103zboi, tocmai pentru a eviden\u021bia importan\u021ba unei victorii sau a justifica \u00eenfr\u00e2ngerea trupelor proprii. Biografii nobililor, prela\u021bilor sau capetelor \u00eencoronate obi\u0219nuiau s\u0103 le idealizeze calit\u0103\u021bile, transform\u00e2ndu-i \u00een sfin\u021bi \u0219i arhangheli. La polul opus, defectele unor conduc\u0103tori din tab\u0103ra advers\u0103 erau exacerbate, du\u0219manii cei mai detesta\u021bi devenind, pentru urma\u0219i ca \u0219i pentru contemporani, \u201efiare\u201d sau \u201edemoni\u201d.<br \/>\nCronicarii Evului Mediu, \u00een aceea\u0219i m\u0103sur\u0103 istorici \u0219i litera\u021bi, se sim\u021beau totodat\u0103 atra\u0219i de fenomenele stranii, inexplicabile. Mistici prin natur\u0103 \u0219i preocup\u0103ri, erau convin\u0219i de existen\u021ba unei for\u021be divine care crease \u0219i men\u021binea ordinea \u00een Univers, echilibr\u00e2nd balan\u021ba \u00eentre Bine \u0219i R\u0103u. Credeau, de asemenea, \u00een miracole, fiind gata s\u0103 accepte f\u0103r\u0103 rezerve un adev\u0103r pe care savan\u021bii secolului XXI \u00eel consider\u0103 greu de digerat: exist\u0103 \u00eenc\u0103, pe P\u0103m\u00e2nt \u0219i \u00een Cosmos, lucruri dincolo de \u00een\u021belegerea uman\u0103 sau imposibil de explicat deocamdat\u0103, ceea ce nu le face mai pu\u021bin reale. Disponibilitatea \u00eenv\u0103\u021ba\u021bilor medievali \u0219i, ulterior, ai Rena\u0219terii, de a-\u0219i accepta limit\u0103rile \u0219i ignoran\u021ba a dus, doar aparent paradoxal, la progresul \u0218tiin\u021bei. F\u0103r\u0103 a fi creduli ori lipsi\u021bi de discern\u0103m\u00e2nt, unii cronicari au consemnat fenomene meteorologice neobi\u0219nuite, creaturi improbabile genetic sau alte manifest\u0103ri ce puteau fi etichetate drept paranormale \u2013 dar care ast\u0103zi sunt identificate, studiate \u0219i acceptate.<br \/>\n            Istoricii Evului Mediu dramatizau \u0219i, uneori, gre\u0219eau. \u00cens\u0103 nu puteau s\u0103 mint\u0103. Oric\u00e2t de deformat\u0103 ar fi fost viziunea lor asupra unei situa\u021bii, faptul \u00een sine era \u00eentotdeauna redat corect; nu se inventau personaje istorice, b\u0103t\u0103lii, molime, asedii. Dac\u0103 un cronicar \u0219i-a indus cititorii \u00een eroare, atunci a f\u0103cut-o f\u0103r\u0103 voie \u0219i fiind de bun\u0103 credin\u021b\u0103, c\u0103ci o minciun\u0103 ar fi reprezentat \u00eenc\u0103lcarea flagrant\u0103 a eticii profesionale! Iar dac\u0103 cercet\u0103torul contemporan elimin\u0103 balastul de exager\u0103ri inerente, interpret\u0103ri partizane sau pledoarii pentru o anume cauz\u0103, vor r\u0103m\u00e2ne doar faptele \u2013 \u0219i din ele se poate reconstitui Istoria.<br \/>\nDe c\u00e2nd s-a inventat scrierea, \u00een conflictele umane a ap\u0103rut \u0219i un plan secundar al ostilit\u0103\u021bilor. Fiecare dintre tabere \u00ee\u0219i are adev\u0103rul ei (dat de proprii cronicari \u0219i istorici) \u0219i, mai t\u00e2rziu, o teorie propagandistic\u0103 \u00een m\u0103sur\u0103 s\u0103 demonstreze c\u0103 dreptatea este de partea sa. \u00cens\u0103 dou\u0103 adev\u0103ruri absolute \u0219i opuse nu pot s\u0103 coexiste.<br \/>\nIar istoria este scris\u0103, de obicei, de \u00eenving\u0103tori. \u00cen Insulele Britanice a fost altfel. Anglo-saxonii, care au pierdut aproape toate b\u0103t\u0103liile, au c\u00e2\u0219tigat totu\u0219i un r\u0103zboi: cel al cronicilor.<\/p>\n<p><strong><br \/>\nIoan Romeo RO\u0218IIANU<\/strong><br \/>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/ziarulderimnic.ro\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/06\/rosiianu.jpg\" data-rel=\"lightbox-image-1\" data-rl_title=\"\" data-rl_caption=\"\" title=\"\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" data-src=\"https:\/\/ziarulderimnic.ro\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/06\/rosiianu.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"620\" height=\"280\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-14905 lazyload\" data-srcset=\"https:\/\/ziarulderimnic.ro\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/06\/rosiianu.jpg 620w, https:\/\/ziarulderimnic.ro\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/06\/rosiianu-300x135.jpg 300w\" data-sizes=\"(max-width: 620px) 100vw, 620px\" src=\"data:image\/gif;base64,R0lGODlhAQABAAAAACH5BAEKAAEALAAAAAABAAEAAAICTAEAOw==\" style=\"--smush-placeholder-width: 620px; --smush-placeholder-aspect-ratio: 620\/280;\" \/><noscript><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/ziarulderimnic.ro\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/06\/rosiianu.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"620\" height=\"280\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-14905\" srcset=\"https:\/\/ziarulderimnic.ro\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/06\/rosiianu.jpg 620w, https:\/\/ziarulderimnic.ro\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/06\/rosiianu-300x135.jpg 300w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 620px) 100vw, 620px\" \/><\/noscript><\/a><\/p>\n<p><strong>BISERICILE PLINE CU FEMEILE ALTORA<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>\u00cemi \u0219tiu femeile pe care le-am iubit pe de rost<br \/>\nle \u0219tiu tr\u0103irile sim\u021birile vis\u0103rile \u0219i dorurile toate<br \/>\nle \u0219tiu trupurile ochii-n c\u0103utarea luminii \u00eei \u0219tiu<br \/>\nle \u0219tiu ucig\u00e2ndu-mi iubirea durerea n\u0103sc\u00e2nd<br \/>\nle \u0219tiu respira\u021biile m\u00e2ng\u00e2ieri ce m\u0103 ard retr\u0103iesc<br \/>\nretr\u0103iesc emo\u021bii pasiuni aproape uitate dezgrop.<\/p>\n<p>Pe str\u0103zile ora\u0219ului \u00eent\u00e2lnesc femeile iubite<br \/>\nsunt femeile altora acum<br \/>\ncu ace\u0219tia tr\u0103iesc ziua \u0219i noaptea<br \/>\ncu ei de bra\u021b traverseaz\u0103 str\u0103zile<br \/>\ncu ei merg la cump\u0103r\u0103turi \u0219i prin via\u021b\u0103.<\/p>\n<p>La biseric\u0103 merg \u00eentotdeauna singure<br \/>\nnu se pot spovedi de m\u00e2n\u0103 cu ei<br \/>\nnu-\u0219i pot m\u0103rturisi p\u0103catele multe al\u0103turi de ei<br \/>\nnu-\u0219i pot pune sufletele pe tav\u0103<br \/>\nace\u0219tia le-ar vedea g\u00e2ndurile sim\u021b\u0103mintele toate<br \/>\nar \u0219ti unde le e sufletul al\u0103turi de ei<br \/>\ncu cine fac dragoste c\u00e2nd sunt al\u0103turi de ei.<\/p>\n<p>\u00cen biserici vin femeile care-\u0219i ur\u0103sc via\u021ba tr\u0103it\u0103<br \/>\ncele care caut\u0103-n ochii sfin\u021bilor picta\u021bi b\u0103rbatul ideal<br \/>\n\u00een puterea divin\u0103 caut\u0103 iertarea b\u0103rba\u021bilor avu\u021bi<br \/>\ncu timpul caut\u0103 iubirea-n ace\u0219tia<br \/>\nsf\u00e2ntul e prototipul b\u0103rbatului care nu spune nimic<br \/>\ne b\u0103rbatul care nu-ntreab\u0103 pe nimeni unde a stat at\u00e2t<br \/>\ne b\u0103rbatul care nu ucide prin gelozie<br \/>\ncare c\u00e2\u0219tig\u0103 prin indulgen\u021b\u0103 \u00een iertare tr\u0103ind.<\/p>\n<p>La biseric\u0103 femeile vin pentru c\u0103 sfin\u021bii din icoane<br \/>\nnu le ceart\u0103 niciodat\u0103 pentru c\u0103 ei sunt puri<br \/>\na\u0219a cum niciodat\u0103 b\u0103rbatul de l\u00e2ng\u0103 nu va fi<br \/>\npentru c\u0103 sfin\u021bii nu vor un anume fel de m\u00e2ncare<br \/>\nei nu vor c\u0103m\u0103\u0219i c\u0103lcate cu dung\u0103 \u0219i guler scrobit<br \/>\nnu vor haine curate \u0219i nu sunt gelo\u0219i.<\/p>\n<p>La biseric\u0103 femeile vin pentru c\u0103 e lini\u0219te-n jur<br \/>\npentru c\u0103 sfin\u021bii le dau tihn\u0103 \u0219i-ncredere-n ele<br \/>\npentru c\u0103 aici nimeni nu le vede defectele<br \/>\naici nu sunt pre\u021buite dup\u0103 s\u00e2ni dup\u0103 buze<br \/>\naici trupul lor nu \u00eenseamn\u0103 nimic.<\/p>\n<p>La biseric\u0103 femeile vin pentru c\u0103 nimeni<br \/>\nn-are treab\u0103 cu kilogramele pe care le au \u00een plus<br \/>\nnimeni nu le spune de celulit\u0103<br \/>\n\u0219i nimeni nu le recomand\u0103 re\u021bete de sl\u0103bire<br \/>\ndin acelea care au efect doar la ceilal\u021bi.<\/p>\n<p>La biseric\u0103 femeile vin s\u0103 tr\u0103iasc\u0103 pu\u021bin \u00een raiul<br \/>\npe care niciodat\u0103 nu-l vor avea pe p\u0103m\u00e2nt.<\/p>\n<p><strong><br \/>\nCarmen DOREAL <\/strong><br \/>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/ziarulderimnic.ro\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/doreal-e1676053442597.jpg\" data-rel=\"lightbox-image-2\" data-rl_title=\"\" data-rl_caption=\"\" title=\"\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" data-src=\"https:\/\/ziarulderimnic.ro\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/doreal-e1676053442597.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"350\" height=\"408\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-20327 lazyload\" src=\"data:image\/gif;base64,R0lGODlhAQABAAAAACH5BAEKAAEALAAAAAABAAEAAAICTAEAOw==\" style=\"--smush-placeholder-width: 350px; --smush-placeholder-aspect-ratio: 350\/408;\" \/><noscript><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/ziarulderimnic.ro\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/doreal-e1676053442597.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"350\" height=\"408\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-20327\" \/><\/noscript><\/a><\/p>\n<p><strong>TU<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>tu e\u0219ti lini\u0219tea mea<br \/>\na\u0219a cum \u00eemi por\u021bi \u00een bra\u021be<br \/>\nsufletul f\u0103r\u0103 trup<\/p>\n<p>m\u0103 dezbraci de singur\u0103tate<br \/>\nprecum un leg\u0103m\u00e2nt de iubire<br \/>\nf\u0103cut \u00een t\u0103cere<br \/>\npe via\u021b\u0103<\/p>\n<p>\u00eemi \u00eentorci visele din exil<br \/>\nrecunosc\u00e2ndu-m\u0103 \u00een respirarea<br \/>\nfiec\u0103rui poem<br \/>\nprecum o muzic\u0103 neuitat\u0103<\/p>\n<p><strong><br \/>\nR\u0102ZBOIUL<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>r\u0103zboiul<br \/>\na\u0219a cum noi<br \/>\nnu am crezut c\u0103 exist\u0103 <\/p>\n<p>ascunde \u00een fiecare moment<br \/>\nni\u0219te \u00eengeri c\u0103zu\u021bi<br \/>\nprecum ni\u0219te flori sub z\u0103pad\u0103 <\/p>\n<p>s-a hot\u0103r\u00e2t<br \/>\ns\u0103 coboare cerul aprins<br \/>\npeste lume<br \/>\ns\u0103 p\u00e2rjoleasc\u0103 suflete \u0219i g\u00e2nduri<br \/>\n\u00een mijlocul timpului uimit <\/p>\n<p>\u00eengrijorarea fiec\u0103rei secunde<br \/>\npl\u00e2nge \u00een noi<br \/>\nc\u00e2te o poveste jertfit\u0103<br \/>\npe pragul unui ieri risipit<br \/>\n\u00een a\u0219teptarea zilei de m\u00e2ine <\/p>\n<p>a\u0219 vrea s\u0103 \u0219tiu<\/p>\n<p>c\u0103 nu e\u0219ti r\u0103nit<br \/>\na\u0219 vrea s\u0103 te str\u00e2ng<br \/>\ncu dragoste \u00een bra\u021be<br \/>\np\u00e2n\u0103 la \u00eenflorire <\/p>\n<p>a\u0219a cum cre\u0219ti<br \/>\nvis desf\u0103cut \u00een petale<br \/>\nocrotit \u00een sufletul meu <\/p>\n<p>\u00eemi por\u021bi lini\u0219tea \u00een palme<br \/>\n\u00een noaptea anului nou<br \/>\n\u00een aerul precum o explozie<\/p>\n<p><strong><br \/>\nD\u00c9J\u00c0 VU<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>nu m\u0103 uita<br \/>\nsteaua ta<br \/>\nmi-e legat\u0103 de trup<\/p>\n<p>alunec\u0103 \u00een noaptea mea<br \/>\nleg\u0103nat\u0103 de visele tale<br \/>\nca \u0219i cum ai aluneca tu \u00eensu\u021bi<br \/>\n\u00een ad\u00e2ncul m\u0103rii \u00eendr\u0103gostit<\/p>\n<p>luceaf\u0103r \u00een fl\u0103c\u0103ri<br \/>\nvis de lumin\u0103 vr\u0103jit<br \/>\nfericit\u0103 dezbr\u0103care de sine<br \/>\n\u00een fiin\u021ba mea<\/p>\n<p>moment d\u00e9j\u00e0 vu<br \/>\nclipocind \u00een sufletul meu<br \/>\nde o via\u021b\u0103 \u00eentreaga<br \/>\niluzie ad\u00e2ncit\u0103<br \/>\n\u00een ritmul acestui poem<br \/>\nscris de dou\u0103 inimi<br \/>\nla patru m\u00e2ini<\/p>\n<p><strong><br \/>\nPICTOGRAM\u0102<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>nu \u0219tiu s\u0103 te iubesc<br \/>\nnu \u0219tiu<br \/>\nveneam spre tine \u00eembr\u0103cat\u0103<br \/>\n\u00eentr-o rochi\u021b\u0103 de spaim\u0103<br \/>\nm\u00e2inilor tale li se f\u0103cuse mil\u0103 \u0219i frig<br \/>\nm\u0103 c\u0103utau prin h\u0103r\u021bi de \u00eentuneric<br \/>\ndesenate-n z\u0103pad\u0103<br \/>\nflori carnivore \u0219erpuitoare<br \/>\naici-acolo pe r\u00e2nd<br \/>\nalfabet lasciv<br \/>\nlirism abstractizat<br \/>\nla limita dorin\u021bei mi\u0219c\u0103toare<br \/>\nloveai plec\u0103rile din albul surd<br \/>\ncu \u00eengerul uitat<\/p>\n<p>nu \u0219tiu s\u0103 te iubesc<br \/>\nnu \u0219tiu <\/p>\n<p>pur \u0219i simplu realitatea este<br \/>\npentru simpli muritori<br \/>\nfumul amintirii doar<br \/>\nmai sparge c\u00e2te-o piatr\u0103<br \/>\nd\u0103 buzna cu o stare de cinism<br \/>\n\u00eentr-o tardiv\u0103 criz\u0103 de ideal<br \/>\nfrenetic joc abandonat<\/p>\n<p>nu \u0219tiu s\u0103 te iubesc<br \/>\nnu \u0219tiu<br \/>\nvei fi amendat<br \/>\ncu pasiuni de ocazie<br \/>\nla care contribui eu<br \/>\no z\u00e2n\u0103 alb\u0103<br \/>\nintrat\u0103 \u00een memorie<br \/>\npe u\u0219a din fa\u021b\u0103<br \/>\nprecum \u00een pictograma unui tablou<br \/>\nimposibil de uitat<br \/>\nnu \u0219tiu s\u0103 te iubesc<br \/>\nnu \u0219tiu<\/p>\n<p><strong><br \/>\nCOSMOSUL NU ARE LIMITE<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>cosmosul nu are limite<br \/>\n\u00een primul r\u00e2nd<br \/>\n\u00eenc\u0103 rote\u0219te<br \/>\nalbastrul monden<br \/>\n\u00een jurul nudurilor \u00eenaripate<\/p>\n<p>culeg\u0103torul de vise<br \/>\nare ochii masca\u021bi<br \/>\ncu stele \u0219i flori<br \/>\nminune \u00eensufle\u021bit\u0103<br \/>\n\u00eemi cite\u0219te pulsul<br \/>\ncu delirul flagrant al s\u00e2ngelui<br \/>\ncelebreaz\u0103 nemurirea \u00een carte<\/p>\n<p>arm\u0103 de distrugere \u00een mas\u0103<br \/>\neste aceast\u0103 \u00eent\u00e2lnire<br \/>\nromantic\u0103 \u00een doi<\/p>\n<p>ne reg\u0103sim \u00eenfiora\u021bi magnetic<br \/>\nnuferi cere\u0219ti pe ape abstracte.<\/p>\n<p><strong><br \/>\nNOAPTE DE CARNAVAL<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>fraze sigilate de enigm\u0103<br \/>\nmiez de noapte zugr\u0103vit<br \/>\nca o sal\u0103 de carnaval<\/p>\n<p>v\u0103d masca lunii pl\u00e2ng\u00e2nd<br \/>\n\u00eentre dou\u0103 crengi de copac<br \/>\ncu lacrimi de r\u00e2s<br \/>\n\u0219i de am\u0103r\u0103ciune<\/p>\n<p>\u00eentreb\u0103rile ne alearg\u0103<\/p>\n<p>\u0219i sparg<br \/>\ncu aripile lor ascu\u021bite<br \/>\nsecunda <\/p>\n<p><strong><br \/>\nTU CE FACI?<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>tu ce faci<br \/>\ncum reu\u0219e\u0219ti s\u0103 vindeci vara r\u0103nit\u0103<br \/>\nce poart\u0103<br \/>\no rochi\u021b\u0103 transparent\u0103 de iarn\u0103<br \/>\n\u00eentre noi<br \/>\nc\u00e2nd focul de-o via\u021b\u0103<br \/>\nmocne\u0219te<br \/>\n\u00een vidul t\u0103cerii<br \/>\nadun\u0103 cenu\u0219\u0103-n decor?<\/p>\n<p>acesta este poemul<br \/>\nce apropie visele mele<br \/>\nde tine<\/p>\n<p>te po\u021bi sprijini pe aripile lui<br \/>\nc\u00e2nd m\u0103 cau\u021bi<br \/>\ns\u0103 nu cazi \u00een gol<\/p>\n<p>po\u021bi auzii \u0219oaptele noastre<br \/>\n\u00een aerul t\u0103iat pe din dou\u0103<\/p>\n<p>o parte dintre cuvintele mele<br \/>\nvor respira l\u00e2ng\u0103 inima ta<br \/>\n\u00een locul meu<\/p>\n<p>se vor topi<br \/>\npeste tot<br \/>\npe gene<br \/>\npe buze<br \/>\npe tot trupul t\u0103u<\/p>\n<p>c\u00e2nd dorul<br \/>\n\u00eemi intr\u0103 \u00een carne<br \/>\n\u00een suflet \u00eemi e\u0219ti<br \/>\nad\u00e2ncit<br \/>\n\u00een visele mele<br \/>\nca \u00een pove\u0219ti <\/p>\n<p><strong><br \/>\nCamelia Manuela SAVA<\/strong><br \/>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/ziarulderimnic.ro\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/12\/cami-sava-3.jpg\" data-rel=\"lightbox-image-3\" data-rl_title=\"\" data-rl_caption=\"\" title=\"\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" data-src=\"https:\/\/ziarulderimnic.ro\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/12\/cami-sava-3.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"160\" height=\"160\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-12695 lazyload\" data-srcset=\"https:\/\/ziarulderimnic.ro\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/12\/cami-sava-3.jpg 160w, https:\/\/ziarulderimnic.ro\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/12\/cami-sava-3-150x150.jpg 150w\" data-sizes=\"(max-width: 160px) 100vw, 160px\" src=\"data:image\/gif;base64,R0lGODlhAQABAAAAACH5BAEKAAEALAAAAAABAAEAAAICTAEAOw==\" style=\"--smush-placeholder-width: 160px; --smush-placeholder-aspect-ratio: 160\/160;\" \/><noscript><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/ziarulderimnic.ro\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/12\/cami-sava-3.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"160\" height=\"160\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-12695\" srcset=\"https:\/\/ziarulderimnic.ro\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/12\/cami-sava-3.jpg 160w, https:\/\/ziarulderimnic.ro\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/12\/cami-sava-3-150x150.jpg 150w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 160px) 100vw, 160px\" \/><\/noscript><\/a><\/p>\n<p>           <strong>Al doilea v\u0103l<\/strong><\/p>\n<p><strong>Capitolul 6 \u2013 Meltem<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Pe aeroport la Adana m\u0103 a\u0219tepta Meltem. Doamna gr\u0103su\u021b\u0103 \u0219i cochet\u0103, cu un sur\u00e2s familiar p\u0103rea o str\u0103in\u0103, de\u0219i era so\u021bia mea de optsprezece ani. Am s\u0103rutat-o cu st\u00e2ng\u0103cie pe obraz. Adusesem daruri pentru ea \u0219i pentru copii \u2013 erau acum ni\u0219te adolescen\u021bi siguri pe ei, politico\u0219i. S-au bucurat s\u0103 m\u0103 vad\u0103, m\u0103 tratau ca pe un musafir important \u2013 vocea mea de la telefon prinsese acum contur \u0219i eram \u00een fa\u021ba lor acel baba care le lipsise pe toat\u0103 perioada copil\u0103riei. Au primit cadourile cu reticen\u021b\u0103. Nu m\u0103 a\u0219teptam nici eu la o mai mare tragere de inim\u0103 din partea lor.<br \/>\nAcas\u0103 \u00eensemna pentru mine o nou\u0103 locuin\u021b\u0103. Meltem c\u00e2\u0219tiga bine ca profesoar\u0103. F\u0103cuse economii, plus c\u0103 nu cheltuise nimic din  ce le trimiteam eu, a\u0219a c\u0103 se hot\u0103r\u00e2se s\u0103 cumpere o cas\u0103 cu o mansard\u0103, pe o str\u0103du\u021b\u0103 lini\u0219tit\u0103, cu vecini dr\u0103gu\u021bi. Se g\u00e2ndise c\u0103 e mai mult spa\u021biu pentru copii. O anun\u021basem c\u0103 vin \u0219i \u00eemi rezervase un dormitor l\u00e2ng\u0103 al lui Mestan, sus, la mansard\u0103, pe c\u00e2nd ea \u0219i fetele se refugiaser\u0103 la parter. Credeam c\u0103 o s\u0103 fie altfel \u2013 c\u0103 o s\u0103 avem un dormitor matrimonial, dar Meltem nu dorise s\u0103 revin \u00een patul ei. Am respectat planificarea ei, nu am comentat \u2013 la urma urmei, eram un b\u0103rbat plecat de mult timp din s\u00e2nul familiei. \u0218i ne distan\u021basem prea mult. F\u0103ceam eforturi s\u0103 m\u0103 acomodez. Sim\u021beam recuno\u0219tin\u021b\u0103 pentru aceast\u0103 femeie. Ata\u0219amentul meu fa\u021b\u0103 de ea era ca pentru mama mea, pentru sora mea mai mare. \u00cemi crescuse copiii, \u00eei educase frumos, se sacrificase pentru mine. \u00cei datoram ei ceea ce sunt.<br \/>\nOare ce sim\u021beam cu adev\u0103rat pentru aceast\u0103 femeie? M\u0103 distan\u021basem de bun\u0103 voie de ea, nu-i ar\u0103tasem niciodat\u0103 ce simt \u2013 eram doar recunosc\u0103tor pentru c\u00e2t muncise, pentru c\u00e2t se implicase \u00een a duce pe umeri familia noastr\u0103, pentru a duce greul. L\u0103sase la o parte visele ei, dorin\u021bele ei. \u00ce\u0219i dusese cu demnitate crucea. Era acum o femeie \u00eemplinit\u0103 prin copiii ei, prin profesia ei. Avea un so\u021b doctor \u0219i se m\u00e2ndrea cu acest lucru. Chiar dac\u0103 eram de mai mult timp plecat de l\u00e2ng\u0103 ea. Nu se lamentase, nu se d\u0103duse b\u0103tut\u0103. Nu vedeam \u00een ochii ei vreo umbr\u0103 de repro\u0219. Era harnic\u0103 \u0219i credincioas\u0103. Casa era curat\u0103, mobilierul ales cu gust, covoarele, minunate. Era organizat\u0103 \u0219i sincer\u0103. Avea un comportament irepro\u0219abil, cum pu\u021bine so\u021bii au.<br \/>\nMesele luate \u00een familie erau pentru mine o delectare \u2013 to\u021bi cinci eram \u00een jurul bucatelor gustoase, dulciurile erau din abunden\u021b\u0103; Meltem g\u0103tea pentru mine bun\u0103t\u0103\u021bi care \u00eemi lipsiser\u0103 foarte mult. G\u0103l\u0103gia copiilor p\u0103rea un zumzet pl\u0103cut, tonifiant. M\u0103 sim\u021beam norocos. \u0218i m\u0103 g\u00e2ndeam serios s\u0103 revin definitiv \u2013 ce rost ar fi avut s\u0103 m\u0103 \u00eenc\u0103p\u0103\u021b\u00e2nez \u0219i s\u0103 r\u0103m\u00e2n departe de ai mei.<br \/>\n Arya, fiica cea mare, era cea mai apropiat\u0103 de sufletul meu: mi-a \u00eemp\u0103rt\u0103\u0219it planurile ei. Urma s\u0103 dea bacalaureatul \u0219i ar fi vrut s\u0103 urmeze o carier\u0103 \u00een medicin\u0103. Se pare c\u0103 o inspiram prin ceea ce f\u0103ceam. Era o t\u00e2n\u0103r\u0103 independent\u0103 care abia a\u0219tepta s\u0103 \u00ee\u0219i ia zborul din cuibul p\u0103rintesc. Visul ei era s\u0103 devin\u0103 doctori\u021b\u0103. \u00cen toamn\u0103 avea s\u0103 sus\u021bin\u0103 examenul la Medicin\u0103. Se baza pe sfaturile mele \u0219i ajutorul dat \u00een sistematizarea programei de admitere. Pentru ea eram un model \u2013 \u00eemi aminteam cum fusese admiterea mea. La r\u00e2ndul meu, m\u0103 bazasem pe ajutorul lui Meltem care f\u0103cuse eforturi mari ca eu s\u0103 stau lini\u0219tit acas\u0103 \u0219i s\u0103 \u00eenv\u0103\u021b \u00een acea perioad\u0103.<br \/>\n Nu m-am opus hot\u0103r\u00e2rii Aryei. Eram un tat\u0103 modern \u2013 nu neap\u0103rat puteam poza \u00eentr-un model, dar voiam ca fata mea s\u0103 \u00ee\u0219i \u00eemplineasc\u0103 visul. Sunt sigur c\u0103 absen\u021ba mea din via\u021ba ei o \u00eend\u00e2rjise, o f\u0103cuse s\u0103 cread\u0103 c\u0103 eu salvez lumea. Or, nu era deloc a\u0219a. I-am explicat c\u0103 putea s\u0103 devin\u0103 doctori\u021b\u0103 dac\u0103 este hot\u0103r\u00e2t\u0103, ambi\u021bioas\u0103 \u0219i \u00eenva\u021b\u0103. O a\u0219tepta un drum lung, pres\u0103rat cu obstacole, cu sui\u0219uri sau cobor\u00e2\u0219uri. Aceast\u0103 meserie era pentru cei curajo\u0219i, pentru cei dedica\u021bi pe deplin oamenilor \u0219i Arya nu se temea de nimic. \u00ce\u0219i alesese acest domeniu pentru c\u0103 \u00eei pl\u0103cea \u00een mod deosebit, nimeni nu \u00eei impunea. Din discu\u021biile noastre am realizat c\u0103 era un copil matur, c\u0103 era preg\u0103tit\u0103 s\u0103 \u00eemi calce pe urme.<br \/>\n\u00cen ceea ce \u00eel prive\u0219te pe Mestan, situa\u021bia era alta. Mestan era un adolescent rebel. Imita comportamentul europenilor \u0219i al americanilor \u2013 juca baschet \u0219i nu \u00eei p\u0103sa prea mult de \u0219coal\u0103. Era atletic \u0219i f\u0103cea mult\u0103 mi\u0219care. Era \u00een echipa de baschet a liceului \u0219i era foarte m\u00e2ndru de acest fapt. Visa ca \u00eentr-o zi s\u0103 ajung\u0103 \u00een America, t\u0103r\u00e2mul celor mai valoro\u0219i juc\u0103tori de baschet, idolii lui. Meltem era nemul\u021bumit\u0103 de ceea ce f\u0103cea Mestan, dar am \u00eencurajat-o cum am \u0219tiut mai bine s\u0103 \u00eel lase s\u0103 \u00ee\u0219i urmeze calea.<br \/>\n-Trebuie s\u0103 vorbe\u0219ti \u0219i tu cu el, Ali! Viseaz\u0103 numai baschet, jocuri pe calculator. Crede c\u0103 faima e cea mai u\u0219oar\u0103 cale de a c\u00e2\u0219tiga bani, vrea s\u0103 plece de acas\u0103. Nu \u0219tiu ce va fi cu el. De fapt, to\u021bi vor s\u0103 plece de l\u00e2ng\u0103 mine&#8230;<br \/>\nAm r\u0103mas uimit de vocea ei care se stinsese \u00een intensitate. Era nec\u0103jit\u0103. Abia acum \u00eemi d\u0103deam seama c\u0103 suferea dup\u0103 mine, c\u0103 \u00eei pricinuisem necazuri, c\u0103 o l\u0103sasem singur\u0103.<br \/>\n-Las\u0103-l, Meltem, e un copil!<br \/>\n-Nu e chiar a\u0219a, \u00ee\u0219i reveni ea, are 16 ani \u0219i este foarte superficial. Nu e chiar crud la minte a\u0219a cum crezi. E foarte motivat s\u0103 fac\u0103 numai ce vrea, numai ce \u00eei place. S\u0103 nu se g\u00e2ndeasc\u0103 \u0219i la ceilal\u021bi din jur. Nu vreau s\u0103-l pierd \u0219i pe el, cum te-am pierdut pe tine.<br \/>\n\u0218i vocea ei se g\u00e2tui, ab\u021bin\u00e2ndu-se cu greu s\u0103 nu pl\u00e2ng\u0103. Era pentru prima dat\u0103 c\u00e2nd o vedeam trist\u0103 pe Meltem. Nu \u0219tiam cum s\u0103 o \u00eempac. Ce era de reparat \u00eentre noi era foarte greu de reparat, dac\u0103 unele gesturi \u00eemi tr\u0103dau grija pentru ea \u0219i pentru copii, trimi\u021b\u00e2ndu-le bani ca s\u0103 le fie de folos, s\u0103 nu le lipseasc\u0103 nimic, suflete\u0219te, eram departe de ea. Anii puseser\u0103 bariere de netrecut \u00eentre noi doi: leg\u0103tura dintre so\u021bi putea fi suturat\u0103, lipit\u0103, cusut\u0103, dar se vedeau a\u021bele ca dintr-o interven\u021bie chirurgical\u0103 f\u0103cut\u0103 prost, de m\u00e2ntuial\u0103&#8230; dac\u0103 a\u0219 fi putut da timpul \u00eenapoi, s\u0103 m\u0103 uit \u00een ochii ei&#8230; dar nu puteam&#8230; nici s\u0103 \u00eei cer iertare nu puteam, de\u0219i sim\u021beam c\u0103 suferise enorm din cauza mea.<br \/>\n-Bine, \u00ee\u021bi promit c\u0103 voi avea o discu\u021bie serioas\u0103 cu el. Sper s\u0103 \u00een\u021beleag\u0103.<br \/>\nAm am\u00e2nat s\u0103 discut cu el, dar c\u00e2nd am avut ocazia s\u0103 fim singuri, am apelat la toate trucurile de care eram \u00een stare \u2013 \u0219i tot ca el a r\u0103mas: nu avea cum s\u0103 dea \u00eenapoi, o \u021binea \u00een continuare c\u0103 nu e gre\u0219it s\u0103 fii sportiv, s\u0103 c\u00e2\u0219tigi bani din sport. \u0218i dac\u0103 nu devenea un mare baschetbalist, ar fi ajuns un profesor de sport. Nu era nimic dezonorant \u00een asta. Am sf\u00e2r\u0219it prin a-i da dreptate, spre disperarea lui Meltem.<br \/>\nJasmine era pretutindeni \u00een umbra mea. M\u0103 p\u00e2ndea, m\u0103 urm\u0103rea, \u00eemi studia mi\u0219c\u0103rile, m\u0103 analiza din cap p\u00e2n\u0103-n picioare. \u0218i eu o observam \u00een detaliu \u2013 devenise o domni\u0219oar\u0103 frumoas\u0103. La nici 13 ani, era con\u0219tient\u0103 c\u0103 gesturile ei fac impresie bun\u0103, se oprea minute \u00een \u0219ir \u00een oglind\u0103, \u021buguia buzele, \u00ee\u0219i piept\u0103na p\u0103rul lung cre\u021b, superb, \u00eel aranja cu pricepere, alegea cu migal\u0103 \u021binutele pe care le compunea sau le vizualiza pe internet. Nu \u0219tiu cu cine sem\u0103na \u00een familia noastr\u0103, dar avea un talent deosebit la culori, forme \u0219i m\u0103rimi, era propor\u021bionat\u0103, nu epata. Era o feti\u021b\u0103 minunat\u0103 \u0219i m\u0103 m\u00e2ndream cu ea.<br \/>\n-Uite, baba, ce rochie nou\u0103 mi-am cump\u0103rat cu banii de la tine! \u00ce\u021bi place? Am fost cu Arya la cump\u0103r\u0103turi. Ea a vrut c\u0103r\u021bi, ca de obicei. P\u0103cat c\u0103 nu      \u0219i-a luat \u0219i ea un ruj. Nu are niciunul. Eu c\u00e2nd voi fi ca ea, voi fi fotomodel. O s\u0103 merg pe podium, o s\u0103 \u00eemi etalez rochiile, s\u0103 m\u0103 admire oamenii. Arya e plictisitoare. Tot timpul st\u0103 cu nasul \u00een c\u0103r\u021bi.<br \/>\n Eu z\u00e2mbeam st\u00e2nd nemi\u0219cat ca un st\u00e2lp. Nu comentam. \u00cemi umpleam sufletul cu aceste st\u0103ri noi care m\u0103 \u00eencercau \u00een ultima vreme. O m\u00e2ng\u00e2iam pe Jasmine pe p\u0103rul ei minunat \u0219i feti\u021ba m\u0103 \u00eembr\u0103\u021bi\u0219a cu putere, m\u0103 topeam de dragul ei.<br \/>\nSe apropia termenul limit\u0103 al concediului meu. Nu \u0219tiam ce s\u0103 fac \u00een continuare. Le spusesem la Bucure\u0219ti c\u0103 voi sta o lun\u0103 plecat. Zilele petrecute \u00een familia mea erau un tratament necesar pentru sufletul meu aflat dup\u0103 o boal\u0103 sufleteasc\u0103, eram \u00een convalescen\u021b\u0103. A\u0219 fi vrut s\u0103 vorbesc mai mult cu Meltem, s\u0103 ne facem planuri de viitor, dar ea se purta politicos cu mine, distan\u021b\u00e2ndu-se ori de c\u00e2te ori \u00eencercam vreo atingere, vreo m\u00e2ng\u00e2iere.<br \/>\nAveam bilet de \u00eentoarcere la Bucure\u0219ti, dar puteam renun\u021ba la el. Meltem \u0219tia asta, dar se pref\u0103cea c\u0103 e mai bine s\u0103 nu pomeneasc\u0103 nimic \u00een acest sens. Atunci am sim\u021bit nevoia s\u0103 preiau eu ini\u021biativa. Cu inima \u00een din\u021bi, am cioc\u0103nit \u00eentr-o sear\u0103 la u\u0219a ei. Niciun r\u0103spuns. Fetele erau plecate \u00een vecini, la o prieten\u0103, \u0219i se \u00eentorceau t\u00e2rziu. Mestan se juca pe calculator cu c\u0103\u0219tile \u00een urechi.<br \/>\n Era un moment propice s\u0103 ne apropiem ca so\u021bi. De c\u00e2nd venisem acas\u0103 nu ne str\u00e2nsesem \u00een bra\u021be, erau doar ciocniri vagi c\u00e2nd luam acela\u0219i pahar sau aceea\u0219i farfurie din buc\u0103t\u0103rie, apoi ne ceream scuze am\u00e2ndoi, vinova\u021bi. \u00cen rest, so\u021bia mea m\u0103 tratase ca pe un musafir de vaz\u0103.<br \/>\nAm insistat cu cioc\u0103nitul. Tot nimic. Am strigat-o:<br \/>\n-Meltem! Deschide! Vreau s\u0103 vorbim!<br \/>\nT\u0103cerea era grea. M\u0103 refuza clar. M-am \u00eenc\u0103p\u0103\u021b\u00e2nat \u0219i am zg\u00e2l\u021b\u00e2it u\u0219a:<br \/>\n-Meltem! Te rog! Dar ea a r\u0103mas ca o stan\u0103 de piatr\u0103, u\u0219a nu s-a deschis.<br \/>\n Am urcat \u00een camera mea. I-am scris un mesaj \u00een care \u00eei ceream iertare dac\u0103 am gre\u0219it cu ceva fa\u021b\u0103 de ea. \u00cei spuneam c\u0103 vreau s\u0103 ne lu\u0103m via\u021ba de la cap\u0103t. C\u0103 vreau s\u0103 fiu cu ea \u0219i s\u0103 m\u0103 implic \u00een viitorul copiilor no\u0219tri. Nu a r\u0103spuns.<br \/>\n\u00cen al doilea mesaj i-am scris c\u0103 vreau s\u0103 o \u021bin \u00een bra\u021be, s\u0103 fac dragoste cu ea. Nici asta nu a impresionat-o. Atunci am \u00een\u021beles c\u0103 nu eram dec\u00e2t un vizitator \u00een casa aceea, c\u0103 via\u021ba ei se desf\u0103\u0219ura f\u0103r\u0103 mine. Eu eram doar cu numele so\u021bul ei. \u0218i at\u00e2t&#8230;<br \/>\nNu m-am \u00eenfuriat, nu m-am agitat. Nu am mai c\u0103utat explica\u021bii. Cred c\u0103  avea dreptate s\u0103 m\u0103 resping\u0103, poate avea pe altcineva, nu aveam cum s\u0103 aflu&#8230; nu aveam cum s\u0103-i cer socoteal\u0103, dup\u0103 ce fusesem plecat at\u00e2ta timp de l\u00e2ng\u0103 ea. Se rupsese ceva \u00een familia noastr\u0103, \u00eentre noi doi. Eu eram cel care tr\u0103ia \u00eentre dou\u0103 lumi. Ea se sacrificase \u0219i r\u0103m\u0103sese statornic\u0103.<br \/>\nMi-am f\u0103cut bagajele. Nu \u0219tiu de ce, dar m\u0103 sim\u021beam u\u0219urat \u2013 nu mai aveam acea ap\u0103sare, acea durere. Eram un b\u0103rbat pe picioarele sale, visul meu era acela s\u0103 fiu doctor: muncisem mult, \u00eenv\u0103\u021basem enorm. E adev\u0103rat c\u0103 \u00eemi sacrificasem familia pentru acest vis, dar orice ideal presupune un sacrificiu. Citisem despre o balad\u0103 rom\u00e2neasc\u0103 a unui me\u0219ter \u2013 Manole. Eu m\u0103 asem\u0103nam pu\u021bin cu el. O zidisem pe Meltem \u00een edificiul carierei mele. De\u0219i o purtam \u00een suflet \u0219i o iubeam a\u0219a cum puteam iubi o fiin\u021b\u0103 care \u00eemi apar\u021bine pe vecie prin leg\u0103tura dintre so\u021bi. \u00cemi p\u0103rea r\u0103u c\u0103 plec. Copiii nu au primit bine aceast\u0103 veste a plec\u0103rii mele. Le promiteam c\u0103 ne vom revedea.<br \/>\nLa aeroport, Meltem a fost dr\u0103gu\u021b\u0103, binevoitoare. Nu a pomenit nimic despre seara anterioar\u0103. Nici eu nu am f\u0103cut vreo aluzie.  Ne-am luat r\u0103mas bun ca dou\u0103 rude, <\/p>\n<p>ca un frate de o sor\u0103 mai mare. I-am s\u0103rutat m\u00e2na \u0219i i-am dus-o la frunte. Era f\u00e2st\u00e2cit\u0103 \u0219i s-a \u00eenro\u0219it. Ochii sa\u0219ii l\u0103crimau.<br \/>\n -O s\u0103 vin vara viitoare! Mul\u021bumesc c\u0103 ai grij\u0103 de copii!<br \/>\n-Bine, Ali! C\u00e2nd vei putea! Domnul s\u0103 fie cu tine! Tanri seninle oslun!<br \/>\nF\u0103r\u0103 \u00eembr\u0103\u021bi\u0219\u0103ri, f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103ruturi p\u0103tima\u0219e. Meltem era o icoan\u0103 a datoriei, o so\u021bie perfect\u0103. Eram m\u00e2ndru c\u0103 e so\u021bia mea. Nu \u0219tiam dac\u0103 e fericit\u0103, nu \u0219tiam prea multe despre ce \u0219i-ar dori, despre idealurile ei, despre ne\u00eemplinirile ei. Era mama copiilor mei.<br \/>\nC\u00e2nd avionul a decolat, m\u0103 sim\u021beam cople\u0219it de \u00eentreb\u0103ri \u2013 oare plecam de acas\u0103 pentru totdeauna, oare o s\u0103-mi rev\u0103d familia? Eram gol pe din\u0103untru, dar o calmitate pusese st\u0103p\u00e2nire pe mine. \u00cei mul\u021bumeam \u00een g\u00e2nd lui Meltem. F\u0103r\u0103 ea nu a\u0219 fi devenit b\u0103rbatul sigur pe el, con\u0219tiincios c\u0103 are o datorie &#8211; s\u0103 fac\u0103 binele. S\u0103 salvez oamenii, s\u0103 fac tot ce \u00eemi st\u0103 \u00een putin\u021b\u0103 ca s\u0103 le aduc alinarea. \u00cens\u0103 eram con\u0219tient c\u0103 am\u00e2ndoi pl\u0103team un pre\u021b \u2013 al sacrificiului. Eu eram departe de familie, de \u021bar\u0103, ea era departe de so\u021bul protector, f\u0103c\u00e2nd totul de una singur\u0103. Pre\u021bul singur\u0103t\u0103\u021bii. Dar era de o mie de ori mai bine a\u0219a. Pentru am\u00e2ndoi. Pentru aceasta \u00eei mul\u021bumeam lui Alah. M\u0103 c\u0103lisem \u00een via\u021b\u0103, cu greut\u0103\u021bi, cu probleme, dar nu \u00eemi pierdusem speran\u021ba. C\u0103 voi putea ob\u021bine \u00eentr-o zi m\u00e2ntuirea. Sufletul meu zbuciumat avea nevoie s\u0103 fie izolat, departe de orice piedic\u0103. S\u0103 fac bine, s\u0103 ajut oamenii, s\u0103 \u00eei iubesc \u0219i s\u0103 \u00eei accept a\u0219a cum sunt.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Rodica BRETIN ADEV\u0102RUL CRONICARILOR \u201eAlfred Rex Saxonum\u201d. 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