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Sorin C\u0102LIN<\/strong>
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\n Afif <\/strong><\/p>\n

(din Volumul \u201ePropozi\u021bii preten\u021bioase\u201d<\/strong>, 2022)<\/p>\n

Sinucidere curat\u0103 fiecare efort. Nu-s zile s\u0103 nu mi se reaminteasc\u0103 truda dubl\u0103 pentru fiecare pas din via\u021b\u0103. \u0218i cu ce \u00eencepe fiecare? Cu scrierea: bastona\u0219e, liniu\u021be, puncte, cifre…. Apoi num\u0103ratul la abac, ce chin, misterioasa ram\u0103 cu s\u00e2rme \u0219i bile mi-a dat de furc\u0103 un an p\u00e2n\u0103 s\u0103-i p\u0103trund metoda. Abia ce-o jucam pe degete, c\u0103 \u00eenv\u0103\u021b\u0103toarea ne-a \u0219i descotorosit de ea. ,,Tabla \u00eenmul\u021birii!\u201d. La clasa a doua primeam aceast\u0103 nou\u0103 provocare printre alte c\u00e2teva, iar la final culegea laurii cel mai abil, o dat\u0103 premiat pentru notele cele mai mari \u0219i \u00eenc\u0103 o dat\u0103 eviden\u021biat pentru implicare prin alegerea \u00een fruntea colectivului de pionieri ai clasei. Cine merita avea tot dreptul, cine nu, pierdea r\u00e2ndul la aprecieri \u0219i a\u0219tepta o tur\u0103 urm\u0103toare. N-am fost primul niciodat\u0103, de aceea am apucat trecerea cravatei ro\u0219ii pe sub epole\u021bii c\u0103m\u0103\u0219ii albe de nailon \u00een runda a doua, \u00een serie cu to\u021bi cei ce luaser\u0103 men\u021biune \u00een primul an de \u0219coal\u0103, pe bune. Diferen\u021b\u0103 mare. Pentr-un 9,20 medie general\u0103 m\u00e2ncai silabe \u0219i adun\u0103ri la pr\u00e2nz, diminea\u021b\u0103 \u0219i la cin\u0103. O s\u0103 m\u0103 abat din povestit doar c\u00e2t s\u0103 m\u0103 ar\u0103t sceptic cu privire la reevaluarea sistemelor de valorizare \u0219i notare cu calificative, cuvintele sunt uneori at\u00e2t de s\u0103race c\u0103 nu pot determina cantitatea de informa\u021bie acumulat\u0103. Un abis al ra\u021biunii g\u00e2ndite socialist \u00een capitalism, o metod\u0103 de uniformizare mai ceva dec\u00e2t \u00een cerin\u021bele doctrinare comuniste. Se cerea la un moment dat s\u0103 treac\u0103 pe c\u00e2t posibil toat\u0103 \u0219col\u0103rimea clasa, abuz \u00eenfierabil, dar cu mai mult de cinci nu ajungea nimeni la liman, \u00een plus, plutea asupra celor trecu\u021bi ,,de mil\u0103\u201d un abur de dispre\u021b dens, de la colegi la profesori, cei ,,accepta\u021bi de sil\u0103\u201d nu se sim\u021beau tocmai confortabil s\u0103 fie ar\u0103ta\u021bi cu degetul a ne\u0219tiin\u021b\u0103.
\n De aceea, chiar la clasa \u00eent\u00e2i exista o real\u0103 concuren\u021b\u0103. Doar c\u00e2nd pronun\u021bi suficient \u0219i considera\u021biile pentru munca depus\u0103 par cel mult satisf\u0103c\u0103toare. \u0218i cum s\u0103 vin\u0103 copilul acas\u0103 cu FB f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103-\u021bi fr\u0103m\u00e2n\u021bi min\u021bile c\u00e2t s\u0103 fie? Zecele era zece, f\u0103r\u0103 gre\u0219eal\u0103, nou\u0103 avea sub semn\u0103tur\u0103 \u00eenro\u0219irea a cel pu\u021bin dou\u0103 locuri, optul vreo patru \u0219i a\u0219a mai departe. La \u0219apte deja erai candidat la meseria de acar dup\u0103 spusele oric\u0103rui profesor, acea meserie de jos \u00een ierarhia celor de la C\u0103ile Ferate. Cum s\u0103 m\u0103 conving\u0103 scala nou propus\u0103 c\u00e2nd eu \u0219tiu c\u0103 ,,bine\u201d-le a fost \u00eencadrat \u00eentre \u0219apte \u0219i opt, unde se postau acei elevi numi\u021bi ,,mediocri\u201d, iar ,,satisf\u0103c\u0103tor\u201d-ului, de la 10 cinci la \u0219ase, i se servea acel tipar al prostului. Ce dram\u0103 erau toate aceste cifre minore, ce jale dac\u0103 ob\u021bineai patru, ce impertinent deveneai pentru un 1, 2 \u0219i 3. Urecheli, mustr\u0103ri, chem\u0103ri la director…. N-a fost nici plop, nici aca\u021b subiectul lec\u021biei de la botanic\u0103 pentru care-am \u00eencasat primul ,,sc\u0103unel\u201d, discursul moralizator al profesoarei a fost at\u00e2t de acid \u0219i acuzator \u00eenc\u00e2t era prima oar\u0103 c\u00e2nd pavilioanele auditive \u0219i obrajii s-au umplut de-un ro\u0219u dureros, senza\u021bia de arsur\u0103 \u00eemi d\u0103dea impresia c\u0103 voi exploda \u00een scurt timp. C\u00e2nd i-am dus carnetul mamei… Perechile ei de palme s-au potrivit exact peste dos \u0219i de pl\u00e2ns mi se \u00eempestri\u021baser\u0103 ma\u021bele, iar pl\u0103m\u00e2nii, acin l\u00e2ng\u0103 acin, \u00eemi sughi\u021bau fiecare respira\u021bie. Acir \u0219i acum c\u0103 am s\u0103 uit acel prim episod c\u00e2nd cheia s-a rupt \u00een broasc\u0103 \u0219i mutra acr\u0103 a tovar\u0103\u0219ei U\u021b\u0103, reticent\u0103 la explica\u021biile unui proasp\u0103t ie\u0219it de sub tutela \u00eenv\u0103\u021b\u0103toarei. Acri fuseser\u0103 \u0219i strugurii de c-o lun\u0103 \u00eenainte, unde aceea\u0219i, cu trening bleumarin, p\u0103rea domestic\u0103, m\u0103 privea a\u0219a c-un ochi a simpatie dup\u0103 credin\u021ba mea de nou\u0103 ani \u0219i-un pic, fals\u0103, nesa\u021bul cu care v\u00e2r\u00e2se ,,\u021b\u00e2\u021bele vacii\u201d \u00een gur\u0103, acre ca naiba, culese din g\u0103leata colegului Dorinel…. Dar despre \u00eent\u00e2mpl\u0103rile n\u0103stru\u0219nice de pe celebrul acru de vie unde ne-am f\u0103cut veacul noi, cei de la B, o lun\u0103 \u00eencheiat\u0103, alt\u0103dat\u0103. <\/p>\n


\n Alie <\/strong><\/p>\n

C\u00e2nd este s\u0103 mearg\u0103 lucrurile…. Peri albi. \u0218i nu de b\u0103tr\u00e2ne\u021be, ci din cauza egocentrismului unora pe care nu-i….
\n N-am ales, am cules. Doi de ici, doi de colo, grupul nostru de duete multiple a fost ostil chiar \u00eenainte s\u0103 ne fi spus bun\u0103 diminea\u021ba, mut\u0103rile de la un loc la altul, permise cu un sim\u021b al \u00eeng\u0103duielii la limita suportabilit\u0103\u021bii, dar afi\u0219at cu afabilitate, pe singura alee a aparatului de zbor, cu sens unic \u0219anjabil, aveau s\u0103 scoat\u0103 la iveal\u0103 caracterele mai degrab\u0103 rurale, parc\u0103 lipsite de minima educa\u021bie comportamental\u0103 c\u00e2nd p\u0103m\u00e2ntul de sub picioare nu-\u021bi apar\u021bine.
\n Vreo c\u00e2teva dame hlizite, doi-trei masculi alfa \u0219i \u00eenc\u0103 o pereche de comedian\u021bi populari c\u0103rora le-au pierit talentele la decolare, v\u00e2jurile, altitudinile sporite cu fiecare metru c\u00e2\u0219tigat \u00een fa\u021ba pistei, vibra\u021biile, tremur\u00e2ndele aripi le-au retezat curajul \u00eempr\u0103\u0219tiat la clasa a doua a Boeing-ului \u0219apte sute \u0219i ceva la un num\u0103r sporit de decibeli.
\n Deci, pe cine s\u0103 aleg? N-am g\u0103sit pe nimeni potrivit profilului meu, nici m\u0103car pentru o treapt\u0103 mai sus dec\u00e2t nivelul obi\u0219nuit al unei discu\u021bii. \u00cenc\u0103 ne-au luat \u0219i-n balon c\u00e2nd ne-am re\u00eent\u00e2lnit \u00een autobuzul pus la dispozi\u021bie pentru destina\u021bia final\u0103: hotelul Thon. ,,Cine-or fi, dom\u2019le, \u0103\u0219tia, For\u021bele de Munc\u0103?\u201d. I-am r\u0103spuns cuviincios. At\u00e2ta inteligen\u021b\u0103 a putut etala cel descoperit ulterior a fi un soi de solist de muzic\u0103 popular\u0103 \u0219i om de radio la nu-\u0219\u2019 ce post. A te alia cu astfel de indivizi…. Dar este destul de mult spus, nici bun\u0103 ziua nu merit\u0103 s\u0103 strici. Altora \u00eens\u0103, \u0219i-aici fr\u0103\u021bia stilurilor muzicale surori \u00ee\u0219i spune mereu cuv\u00e2ntul, merit\u0103 s\u0103 le acorzi toat\u0103 aten\u021bia. Un amic precum Alex F., pu\u0219ti fa\u021b\u0103 de ,,b\u0103b\u0103tiile noastre\u201d, este binevenit oric\u00e2nd.
\n Izola\u021bionismul de care am avut parte s-a manifestat imediat dup\u0103 descinderea din autocar, \u00een timpul popasului prelungit \u00een holul hotelului, perechile pop-disco, noi, Alex \u0219i Ilinca fusesem omi\u0219i din op\u021biunile de strigare \u0219i cazare, alte ,,personalit\u0103\u021bi\u201d avuser\u0103 \u00eent\u00e2ietate la ghi\u0219eul multi lingvistic cu buletinul. Dup\u0103 o or\u0103 de v\u00e2nzoleli \u00eentre fotolii \u0219i masa cu dou\u0103 iMac-uri, unde puteam s\u0103-mi mai alin curios r\u0103bdarea trecut\u0103 de punctul de fierbere, mi-am luat inima-n din\u021bi \u0219i am pus \u00eentrebarea, dup\u0103 o tentativ\u0103 de adresare \u00eentrerupt\u0103 \u00een limba gestual-verbal\u0103 englez\u0103, \u00eentr-o manier\u0103 grav\u0103 cu tonuri alto: Da\u2019 pe noi nu ne mai cazeaz\u0103 nimeni? Chiar a\u0219a, ultimii? Ea, fiindc\u0103 doar o ea puteam ,,s\u0103-mi aloc\u201d lini\u0219tirii nervului imanent, c-un rapid r\u0103spuns, ,,V\u0103 c\u0103utam, ave\u021bi la mine cheia camerei!\u201d, a pus cap\u0103t lament\u0103rii din punctul maxim posibil. \u0218i-am urcat, \u0219i-am tot urcat la etajul 21, cu o vitez\u0103 ce-mi amintea de virajele cursei aviatice p\u0103r\u0103site nu cu und\u0103 de regret, \u00een mai pu\u021bin de cinci secunde \u0219i-un amin crucificat cu limba-n palatele gurii. Una peste alta, mi-a trecut pentru c\u00e2teva minute profundul amoc, ajuns \u00een camer\u0103, s-au \u00eenmuiat crisp\u0103rile. Vizita de curtoazie b\u0103ii, privirile wallstreet-iene ferestrei, destinderea muscular\u0103 c\u00e2teva clipe \u00een pat, despachet\u0103rile. Du\u0219ul de rigoare cu \u00eemb\u0103ls\u0103m\u0103ri de aloe \u0219i-un strop de arom\u0103 de alun, sigur \u0219i cu ceva radical amil, un pic amar la gustarea inevitabil\u0103…. Alt\u0103 via\u021b\u0103! Belgian\u0103!<\/p>\n


\n Acil\u0103 <\/strong><\/p>\n

Dorin\u021bele apar uneori, dispar \u00eens\u0103 la…. Plec\u0103m, \u00een sf\u00e2r\u0219it! Planurile mele de cas\u0103 nou\u0103 abia se conturau, gard, alei, funda\u021bii \u0219i…. Un pomelnic lung \u0219i costisitor de materiale. Ajung \u00een patul meu, singurul \u00een care dac\u0103 \u00eenfig cornul \u00een pern\u0103, adorm la mare urgen\u021b\u0103. Totu\u0219i, c\u0103ile spre avion, cum spusesem, te \u00eenv\u00e2rt \u0219i te sucesc de r\u0103m\u00e2i f\u0103r\u0103 punct de reper, acu\u0219a abia bag de seam\u0103 c\u0103 prima parte din traseu s-a \u0219ters definitiv din minte, am luat elevatorul, am purces pe scara puturosului, habar n-am! Dup\u0103 aceea se contureaz\u0103 totul cu precizie. Ai nim\u0103nui la casa pentru procurarea final-way-ticket-ului, un pustiu \u00eenfrico\u0219\u0103tor se aciu\u0103 \u00een sufletul meu de c\u0103l\u0103tor \u00eent\u00e2rziat, rupt de grosul grup\u0103rii artistice \u0219i obligat s\u0103 mai fac\u0103 pe uliul adiat de curen\u021bii lui zece mii de leghe… peste nori. Nimeni \u00een fa\u021b\u0103, nimeni \u00een spate, dup\u0103 ce se perindaser\u0103 la vama iri\u0219ilor puzderie de coplanetari. N-om avea ghinionul ca vreunui \u00eemb\u0103rbo\u0219at s\u0103-i treac\u0103 prin bil\u0103 a se ad\u0103pa la ,,izvorul t\u0103m\u0103duirii\u201d coparticipan\u021bilor la traficul aerian, nu s-o fi infiltrat vreun adept la inep\u021bia izb\u0103virii prin moarte instantanee c\u00e2t mai violent\u0103, adult, dar f\u0103r\u0103 minte-ntreag\u0103, de-l de ador\u0103 pe Allah, pe care-l aduce ceasul fatal c\u00e2nd \u021bi-e lumea mai drag\u0103? ,,Ia uite-ne \u0219i pe noi, ne adun\u0103 clipa ca s\u0103 ne d\u0103m duhul la mii de kilometri de \u021bar\u0103!\u201d, ad\u0103st n\u0103t\u00e2ng o vreme la scenariul \u0103sta de co\u0219mar. Buletinul, numele \u00een scripte, eliberare. Bagaj \u00een m\u00e2n\u0103, chitare la cal\u0103, dar la alt ghi\u0219eu. \u0218i nu \u0219tiu cum se face c\u0103 intr\u0103m deodat\u0103 \u00een aglomera\u021bie, obrazul vastelor \u00eenc\u0103peri, umbrite \u00een urm\u0103 de posibilitatea c\u0103 po\u021bi s\u0103 aduni in\u0219i cu nemiluita spre a-i suprima \u00een \u0219ag\u0103, se \u00eembujoreaz\u0103, culoarea vie\u021bii se las\u0103 adus\u0103 pe retin\u0103 \u0219i se adap\u0103 \u00een speran\u021ba c\u0103 vom supravie\u021bui. Cel pu\u021bin o vreme. O travers\u0103m \u0219i ne \u00eendrept\u0103m c\u0103tre ,,nudism\u201d.
\n Zece por\u021bi ca s\u0103 adune informa\u021bii despre chilo\u021bii mei, ai t\u0103i \u0219i ai lui. S\u0103 nu fie de tabl\u0103 c\u0103 piuie \u00eenc\u0103 de la…. Adu\u0219i ca vitele la abator intr\u0103m cu alt\u0103 team\u0103, s\u0103 nu cumva vreun ,,amabil\u201d s\u0103 ne fi ,,\u00eemprumutat\u201d cu niscai ,,interzise\u201d, eu \u0219i Alex pe un gang de verificare, Dan l\u00e2ng\u0103. Aclam scrupulozitatea, mi-e drag\u0103 minu\u021biozitatea, dar nu c\u00e2nd ai de verificat lenjerie, tubulatur\u0103 de past\u0103 de din\u021bi ori spray. S\u0103 le fac\u0103 din plastic. B\u0103rbatul, deh, mai necioplit, femeii \u00eens\u0103, \u00een v\u0103zul tuturor s\u0103 \u00eei at\u00e2rni \u0219pilhozenii \u00een v\u00e2rful creionului denot\u0103 lips\u0103 de respect a intimit\u0103\u021bii, s\u0103 se mai nimereasc\u0103 cineva… – la plecare din Bucure\u0219ti, cum \u00eei este obiceiul \u00eent\u00e2mpl\u0103rii de a aduna persoane din aceea\u0219i zon\u0103 de habitare, am \u00eent\u00e2lnit la intrarea \u00een aeroport un r\u00e2mnicean de care nu m\u0103 desp\u0103r\u021beau 24 de ore de c\u00e2nd purtasem o convorbire telefonic\u0103, f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 m\u0103 \u00een\u0219tiin\u021beze c\u0103 se va deplasa spre… – se face dama instantaneu neagr\u0103, verde, bleumarin….
\n Un curcubeu…. O mutr\u0103 acrie mai lipse\u0219te, o englez\u0103 r\u0103stit\u0103, o m\u00e2n\u0103 pe pistol a trupelor ce-\u0219i fac rondul ca pe front \u0219i e de-ajuns s\u0103 \u021bi se \u00eenmoaie m\u0103dularele, s\u0103 transpiri, s\u0103 te ia cu le\u0219in. \u0218i \u0103\u0219tia sap\u0103 video ad\u00e2nc \u00een m\u0103runtaiele geamantanului….
\n Mi-am r\u00e2s \u00een sine de sistem, nu e nicidecum o radiografie precis\u0103, pe display, cel pu\u021bin \u00een capitala noastr\u0103, se \u00een\u0219ir\u0103 linii \u0219i curbe, de diferite nuan\u021be, trasate parc\u0103 \u00een joac\u0103 de copiii de trei-patru ani.
\n Hazul nu te scap\u0103 totu\u0219i de atmosfera \u00eencins\u0103, sufocant\u0103, niciun sistem de aeraj nu te ajut\u0103 s\u0103-\u021bi reduci m\u0103car cu o zecime de grad temperatura brusc crescut\u0103, g\u00e2tuitoare. Sufli c\u0103tre pieptul degajat cu degetele prinse de c\u0103ma\u0219\u0103, faci palma evantai, cau\u021bi s\u0103 te adapi la v\u00e2na cu v\u00e2nt rece din aparatura halei \u00een zadar, nu trece pe moment. Prin st\u00e2nga am intrat, pe dreapta ie\u0219im. \u0218i d\u0103-i \u0219i num\u0103r\u0103. \u0218i-a noastr\u0103 parc\u0103 intrase-n p\u0103m\u00e2nt.<\/p>\n


\n Marin Moscu<\/strong>
\n\"\"

Lacrim\u0103 de dor<\/strong><\/p>\n

O lacrim\u0103 de dor
\nP\u00e2lp\u00e2ie pe buzele
\nImagina\u021biei<\/p>\n

Fum de g\u00e2nduri
\nR\u0103sun\u0103 \u00een pielea
\nRegatului meu.<\/p>\n

Mi-e foame
\nDe \u00eembr\u0103\u021bi\u0219area ta.<\/p>\n

Unghere de vraj\u0103
\nAprind lum\u00e2n\u0103ri
\nPe aripi de dor.<\/p>\n


\nPudra uit\u0103rii<\/strong><\/p>\n

Buzele-nfloresc
\n\u00cen p\u0103rticica de s\u0103rut,
\nZarea clocote\u0219te
\n\u00cen dorin\u021ba
\nDe a tivi orizontul
\n\u00centre noapte \u0219i zi,
\nNoi adun\u0103m umbre
\nDin propriile drumuri
\nPres\u0103rate
\nCu pudra uit\u0103rii.<\/p>\n


\nConvertire<\/strong><\/p>\n

E\u0219ti visul,
\nE\u0219ti aerul,
\nE\u0219ti focul,
\nE\u0219ti soarele \u0219i
\nPic\u0103tura de ploaie.<\/p>\n

E\u0219ti convertit\u0103
\n\u00cen dependen\u021ba mea,
\nIubire ap\u0103ruta
\n\u00cen toamna
\nCon\u0219tiin\u021bei mature.<\/p>\n

Un vis respirat
\nPrin to\u021bi porii
\nScald\u0103 speran\u021ba.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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