{"id":12246,"date":"2020-11-24T14:48:34","date_gmt":"2020-11-24T11:48:34","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/ziarulderimnic.ro\/?p=12246"},"modified":"2020-11-24T14:48:34","modified_gmt":"2020-11-24T11:48:34","slug":"propozitii-pretentioase-asceze","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/ziarulderimnic.ro\/?p=12246","title":{"rendered":"Propozi\u021bii preten\u021bioase – Asceze"},"content":{"rendered":"

,,Intr\u0103.\u201d
\n A\u0219a brusc? Nicio nedumerire?
\n Nu era ca acum. Cu ,,dac\u0103-mi ajut\u0103 Dumnezeu…\u201d O convorbire \u00een l\u0103untruri f\u0103r\u0103 miz\u0103 divin\u0103 – nu mai sunt ,,zaruri\u201d \u00een portofoliul lexical la dispozi\u021bie, le-a\u0219 fi aruncat cu u\u0219urin\u021b\u0103 \u0219i \u00eencredere c\u0103-mi ofer\u0103 \u0219anse mai mari -, un r\u0103zboi mental cu tainicul eu feminin nedefinit, nedeslu\u0219it, imprevizibil, p\u0103tima\u0219, sictirit, alunecos, provocator, extremele toate puse la un loc, nu armonic, ci \u00een\u0219irate melodic dup\u0103 modelul par-impar: una bun\u0103, urm\u0103toarea rea. Indiscutabil.
\n Prea repede. Coace ea ceva. Vrea s\u0103 se r\u0103zbune. Hm….
\n Astea cu iubirea ajut\u0103. Extaz sau nefericire se consemneaz\u0103 la plusuri. Iar muzicienii profit\u0103 din plin, programeaz\u0103 creierul peste noapte \u0219i diminea\u021ba ies cu piesa gata. V-am dezv\u0103luit inten\u021bia. Se cerea de la sine punctul sensibil de la care pornesc c\u00e2ntecele unora ca mine, acelea care se nasc \u0219i pier \u00een sine, dintr-un bazin inspira\u021bional pe care \u00eel asanam<\/strong> inutil p\u00e2n\u0103 \u00een noapte, a doua zi mustea de muzic\u0103. Cu tot arsenalul de mijloace virtuale. Ajutat de dou\u0103 m\u00e2ini ar\u0103mii, de un glas din ce \u00een ce mai r\u0103gu\u0219it pe m\u0103sur\u0103 ce fiecare not\u0103 se smulgea dureros din suflet, dup\u0103 ore \u00eentregi de munc\u0103, asidue<\/strong>, peste m\u0103surile unui corp de\u0219i antrenat recent, printre asanii<\/strong> bairamdede\u0219ti, \u00eenc\u0103 deficitar la st\u0103p\u00e2nirea de sine. Munc\u0103, iubire \u0219i muzic\u0103. Trei surori vitrege. Trei nurori nedorite, una de mine, dou\u0103 de p\u0103rin\u021bii mei. Dou\u0103 la care aspiri<\/strong> \u0219i ,,nu le po\u021bi avea\u201d, tot din panoplia fructelor interzise, una h\u00e2d\u0103, \u00een salopete, murdar\u0103, hain\u0103, strict\u0103, asprie<\/strong>, de care nu m\u0103 ata\u0219am<\/strong> oric\u00e2te sfor\u021b\u0103ri ar fi epuizat.
\n A doua zi \u00eenapoi pe frontul de lucru, \u00eenapoi la repeti\u021bii, \u00eenapoi acas\u0103. Apostrofat. Deh, \u0219i eu am devenit p\u0103rinte \u0219i m\u0103car o vorb\u0103 spre diminea\u021b\u0103 \u00eei adresam fiicei: ,,Ai venit? Pune m\u00e2na \u0219i dormi.\u201d La noi nu era a\u0219a, am\u00e2ndoi dormeau la ora miezului de noapte, aveam parte de dojeniri abia a doua zi, dup\u0103 sfada la cafea a p\u0103rin\u021bilor, totu\u0219i cu un ochi treaz la sosirea mea \u00eent\u00e2rziat\u0103, \u00eencepeau practicile…. ,,Iar ai fost la aia!…\u201d, \u0219i mi-l \u00eemboldea pe tata s\u0103-mi zic\u0103 vreo dou\u0103. Se stingeau mai repede, plecarea la serviciu nu l\u0103sa loc de prelegeri despre ,,nenorocirea de la casa ei\u201d. A mamei. Mai r\u0103u se dezl\u0103n\u021buia c\u00e2nd, pe degustarea de spirtoase, se \u00eendeletnicea s\u0103 mi-l asmut\u0103<\/strong> pe tata, iar el s\u0103-mi \u00eemping\u0103 o vizit\u0103 inopinat\u0103 la repeti\u021bii, s\u0103 m\u0103 fac\u0103 de ru\u0219ine \u0219i, g\u00e2ndea ea, s\u0103 m\u0103 dea pe u\u0219\u0103 afar\u0103 pentru totdeauna. Mai aspir\u0103<\/strong>, Sorine, la atipie<\/strong>, mai desprinde-te de n\u0103ravurile familiei C\u0103lin \u0219i p\u0103rerile asprii<\/strong> \u0219i nemeritate din gura t\u00e2rgului. \u0218aib\u0103, bomfaier (l-am scris corect), munc\u0103 \u0219i s\u0103r\u0103cie. (,,Dac\u0103 n-ai fost \u00een stare s\u0103 iei la facultate!\u201d) Atacat<\/strong> de fiecare dat\u0103.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

,,Intr\u0103.\u201d A\u0219a brusc? Nicio nedumerire? Nu era ca acum. Cu ,,dac\u0103-mi ajut\u0103 Dumnezeu…\u201d O convorbire \u00een l\u0103untruri f\u0103r\u0103 miz\u0103 divin\u0103<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":7,"featured_media":6924,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"colormag_page_container_layout":"default_layout","colormag_page_sidebar_layout":"default_layout","_monsterinsights_skip_tracking":false,"_uf_show_specific_survey":0,"_uf_disable_surveys":false,"ngg_post_thumbnail":0,"video_url":"","footnotes":""},"categories":[7,318],"tags":[],"aioseo_notices":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/ziarulderimnic.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/12246"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/ziarulderimnic.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/ziarulderimnic.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ziarulderimnic.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/7"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ziarulderimnic.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=12246"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/ziarulderimnic.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/12246\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":12247,"href":"https:\/\/ziarulderimnic.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/12246\/revisions\/12247"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ziarulderimnic.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/6924"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/ziarulderimnic.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=12246"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ziarulderimnic.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=12246"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ziarulderimnic.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=12246"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}