{"id":11137,"date":"2020-10-06T00:20:50","date_gmt":"2020-10-05T21:20:50","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/ziarulderimnic.ro\/?p=11137"},"modified":"2020-10-10T23:44:04","modified_gmt":"2020-10-10T20:44:04","slug":"de-ai-nostri-mircea-v-homescu-aporii-1","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/ziarulderimnic.ro\/?p=11137","title":{"rendered":"De-ai no\u0219tri! &#8211; Mircea V. Homescu &#8211; Aporii&#8230; (1)"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><strong>CINISM \u2013 UNICA TOXIN\u0102 BINEF\u0102C\u0102TOARE DIN ANUL 2002<\/strong><\/p>\n<p><strong>MIC\u00a0 DISCURS\u00a0 DESPRE\u00a0 CINISM (BINE\u00a0 TEMPERAT)<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>\u201e<em>Cinism\u2026 tu ispita a tuturor inteligen\u021belor<\/em>\u201d<br \/>\nA. Camus<\/p>\n<p>Unii cred c\u0103 cinismul ar fi o mic\u0103 n\u0103zb\u00e2tie care \u201eexplodeaz\u0103 pe \u021beava tunului\u2026 \u0219i-l r\u0103ne\u0219te pe tunar\u201d; eu nu cred a\u0219a ceva, deoarece p\u00e2n\u0103 azi n-am v\u0103zut nici un astfel de \u201etunar\u201d care s\u0103 fi \u201edecedat\u201d din cauza unei astfel de r\u0103ni, ba dimpotriv\u0103\u2026 le-a mers \u0219i le merge din ce \u00een ce mai bine.<br \/>\nAltora, li se pare c\u0103 ar fi \u201eultima sta\u021bie\u201d moral\u0103 c\u0103tre care conduce o \u00een\u021belegere clar\u0103 a vie\u021bii, considerat\u0103 totu\u0219i imoral\u0103 de c\u0103tre pudibonzii lumii.<br \/>\nCinismul, ca \u201especificitate\u201d de g\u00e2ndire \u0219i comportare, este atribuit \u00een mod patern atenianului Antistene (444 \u2013 365 \u00ee.Hr.), discipol al lui Socrate \u0219i maestru al lui Diogene; un nume mai pu\u021bin celebru, \u00eentre dou\u0103 celebrit\u0103\u021bi.<br \/>\nCe vor cinicii, azi ca \u0219i ieri?<br \/>\n\u00cenainte de orice, s fidarea convenien\u021belor statuate, oarec\u00e2t agresiv-zgomotoase, precum\u2026 l\u0103tratul c\u00e2inilor\u2026 ; \u0219i, plec\u00e2nd de aici, emblema tagmei filozofilor cinici a r\u0103mas tot un c\u00e2ine.<br \/>\n\u00censu\u0219i numele \u201ecurentului\u201d cinicilor tot de la mamiferul domestic amintit, deriv\u0103 (grece\u0219te, kuon \u2013 kunos = c\u00e2ine).<br \/>\nSe mai poveste\u0219te c\u0103 cinicii sfidau multe \u201eformalisme\u201d social-morale ale vie\u021bii \u2013 inclusiv \u201eacurate\u021bea\u201d ve\u0219mintelor \u2013 motiv pentru care, se zice, c\u0103 Socrate ar fi spus lui Antistene c\u0103-i vede (sesizeaz\u0103) orgoliul (specific cinicilor)\u2026 chiar \u0219i prin g\u0103urile \u00eembr\u0103c\u0103mintei.<br \/>\nAzi, se pare c\u0103 nu mai revendic\u0103 nimeni \u2013 pentru sine, \u00een mod deosebit \u2013 apartenen\u021ba la \u201etagma\u201d cinicilor; oare din motive de ru\u0219ine?<br \/>\nEu nu cred c\u0103 ru\u0219inea ar fi cauza acestei ab\u021bineri, fiindc\u0103 mai\u2026 fiecare dintre noi se dovede\u0219te cinic, m\u0103car de trei ori pe zi, dac\u0103 nu\u2026 de trei ori pe or\u0103.<br \/>\nDin gur\u0103, \u00eens\u0103 nu ezit\u0103m s\u0103 pretindem c\u0103 ne displace cinismul, ba chiar s\u0103-l condamn\u0103m.<br \/>\n\u00cen care manier\u0103 \u201econdamn\u0103m\u201d cinismul, se va desprinde din con\u021binutul acestui mic \u201ediscurs\u201d pe care m-am c\u0103znit \u2013 oarec\u00e2t \u2013 s\u0103-l temperez, dar nu at\u00e2t c\u00e2t am dorit, mai pu\u021bin fiindc\u0103 m-a\u0219 fi ru\u0219inat de cinism.<br \/>\nDe ce ne-am jena \u00eens\u0103\u2026 de op\u021biunea cinic\u0103, \u00een via\u021b\u0103?; \u0219i \u2013 \u00een consecin\u021b\u0103 \u2013 pe cine mai sperie azi ru\u0219inea, ca s\u0103 ne jen\u0103m atunci c\u00e2nd o sfid\u0103m?<br \/>\nS\u0103 fim \u201etari\u201d \u0219i s\u0103 recunoa\u0219tem c\u0103 gafele pe care le comitem \u2013 din c\u00e2nd \u00een c\u00e2nd \u2013 sunt singurele noastre fapte \u00een care nu exist\u0103 nici un strop de cinism.<br \/>\nEle sunt confirmarea ludic-comic\u0103 a bunei noastre credin\u021be, atunci c\u00e2nd ne permitem s-o expunem \u201ev\u0103zului\u201d tuturor; fi\u021bi curajo\u0219i, recunoa\u0219te\u021bi c\u0103 a\u0219a este.<br \/>\n\u00cen rest\u2026 sfid\u0103m cu ironie; ceea ce tot un fel de cinism se poate considera.<br \/>\n\uf0d8 S\u0103 fie adev\u0103rat c\u0103, \u00een via\u021ba intelectual\u0103, consecven\u021ba reprezint\u0103, de fapt, o la\u0219\u0103\/tacit\u0103 recunoa\u0219tere a e\u0219ecului; \u0219i c\u0103, prin aceasta, ne tr\u0103d\u0103m neputin\u021ba de a schimba \u201emacazul\u201d op\u021bional \u0219i de a re-orienta cap-compasul ac\u021biunilor? Cineva \u2013 odat\u0103 \u2013 care s-a crezut mare g\u00e2nditor \u0219i \u00eentr-ale politicii (de\u0219i n-a fost\u2026 p\u00e2n\u0103 la urm\u0103), zicea c\u0103 \u00eend\u0103r\u0103tul consecven\u021bei se ascunde teama c\u0103 \u201erenun\u021b\u0103rile\u201d noastre abandonate ar putea fi \u201eculese\u201d\/adunate de altcineva mai iste\u021b, spre a le valorifica pentru el; abia atunci am avea motive serioase s\u0103 murim de ciud\u0103; a\u0219a c\u0103 pentru a evita un atare risc\u2026r\u0103m\u00e2nem consecven\u021bi, chiar si \u00een fa\u021ba eviden\u021belor contrare, cele mai ferme. Ce facem, deci? Mai vot\u0103m cu consecven\u021ba? Mai adaug\u0103, acela\u0219i \u201eg\u00e2nditor\u201d, \u0219i c\u0103\u2026 fidelitatea\/consecven\u021ba conjugal\u0103 are la baz\u0103 tot\u2026 e\u0219ecul \u00eendr\u0103znelii de a-\u021bi \u00een\u0219ela perechea; pentru ca nu cumva s\u0103 apar\u0103 altul \u0219i s\u0103 culeag\u0103 ceea ce tu\u2026 etc., etc.<br \/>\n\uf0d8 \u00cen domeniul existen\u021bei curente a omului n-a dominat niciodat\u0103 un echilibru stabil \u00eentre pre\u021b \u0219i valoare, fiindc\u0103 pre\u021bul este material\/funciar, iar valoarea incumb\u0103 mai ales o component\u0103 moral\u0103\/spiritual\u0103. Vre\u021bi o dovad\u0103 ad-hoc? Azi, mai ales, dar nici alt\u0103dat\u0103 \u00een prea mare m\u0103sur\u0103, oamenii n-au \u0219tiut dec\u00e2t pre\u021bul a tot ce \u201efac\u201d (sau produc) \u0219i \u2026 niciodat\u0103 valoarea acestor crea\u021bii. Cel mai adesea stabilim cvasi-precis pre\u021bul, dar ignor\u0103m \u2013 sau ne \u00een\u0219el\u0103m \u2013 \u00een domeniul valorii<br \/>\n\uf0d8 Eu unul apreciez enorm punctualitatea \u0219i m\u0103 cert zilnic cu diver\u0219i\u2026 care n-au respect pentru ea. \u00centr-o zi, \u00eens\u0103, mi-a zis cineva o vorb\u0103 care m-a pus pe g\u00e2nduri, pe care o voi reproduce f\u0103r\u0103 nici un comentariu. Punctualitatea este\u2026 un ho\u021b care fur\u0103 timpul! \u00cemi place paradigma, recunosc, dar nu m-a convins\u2026 pentru a o accepta, de\u0219i m\u0103 obsedeaz\u0103; ca dovad\u0103\u2026 am \u0219i reprodus-o<br \/>\n\uf0d8 Se zice c\u0103 mai toate femeile nu au nimic de spus\u2026 dar \u201espun\u201d asta \u00eentr-un mod deosebit de \u00eenc\u00e2nt\u0103tor \u0219i cu foarte mult farmec. Nici b\u0103rba\u021bii, \u00eens\u0103, chiar destul de mul\u021bi dintre ei, nu se plaseaz\u0103 mai presus, \u00een sfera vorbirii care nu spune nimic; dac\u0103 e s\u0103 fim cinsti\u021bi<br \/>\n\uf0d8 M\u0103 \u00eentreb, de multe ori, de ce e at\u00e2t de mult\u0103 destr\u0103mare a c\u0103s\u0103toriilor pe lume, cu osebire \u00een ultima jum\u0103tate de veac? Explica\u021bii ar fi multe; nu m\u0103 hazardez eu s\u0103 le enum\u0103r pe toate. Mie, \u00eens\u0103, mi se pare c\u0103 vina const\u0103 \u00een \u201eam\u0103nuntul\u201d c\u0103 \u2013 tot mai frecvent \u2013 b\u0103rba\u021bii se \u00eensoar\u0103 fiindc\u0103 se plictisesc de burl\u0103cie, iar femeile fiindc\u0103 au fost \u0219i r\u0103m\u00e2n mereu curioase. Ambele motive\u2026 insuficiente pentru o \u201e\u00eentreprindere\u201d care trebuie s\u0103 dureze \u00een timp. Din aceast\u0103 combina\u021bie de motiva\u021bii, rezult\u0103\u2026 dezam\u0103girea ambilor parteneri, vis-\u00e0-vis de aventura comis\u0103 \u00eempreun\u0103; iar dup\u0103 dezam\u0103gire vine dezinteresul, apoi \u201enevoia\u201d de \u00een\u0219elare (uneori reciproc\u0103) \u0219i \u00een final destr\u0103marea\/divor\u021bul.<br \/>\n\uf0d8 S-a zis, mai demult, c\u0103 femeile ar reprezenta triumful materiei asupra inteligen\u021bei, iar b\u0103rba\u021bii triumful inteligen\u021bei asupra\u2026; ei bine, nu e a\u0219a precum s-ar a\u0219tepta oricine, adic\u0103\u2026 asupra materiei; este, din nefericire, triumful inteligen\u021bei asupra moralei. Da, b\u0103rba\u021bii \u2013 mai ales \u2013 dar nu numai ei, reprezint\u0103 un adev\u0103rat apogeu al sfid\u0103rii moralei prin inteligen\u021b\u0103. Poate c\u0103 din aceste motive folclorul sapien\u021bial rom\u00e2nesc a sintagmat cum c\u0103 nu e de nici un folos dac\u0103 br\u00e2nza bun\u0103 ( inteligen\u021ba adic\u0103) se afl\u0103 \u00een burduf de c\u00e2ine ( \u00een slujba imoralit\u0103\u021bii, adic\u0103).<br \/>\n\uf0d8 Pentru foarte mult\u0103 lume experien\u021ba nu las\u0103 foarte multe \u00eenv\u0103\u021b\u0103minte, de\u0219i ar fi de dorit, teoretic,. De altfel, ca \u0219i perechea ei \u2013 con\u0219tiin\u021ba \u2013 experien\u021ba nu reu\u0219e\u0219te dec\u00e2t rareori s\u0103 ne opreasc\u0103 de la p\u0103cat\/fapte rele, ca s\u0103 nu mai vorbesc de repetarea lor. Poate c\u0103, din aceste motive, \u201especiali\u0219tii\u201d \u00een premoni\u021bie se intereseaz\u0103 at\u00e2t de mult de trecutul omului. Relele f\u0103ptuite \u00een trecut \u2013 cu sil\u0103, poate \u2013 le vom repeta \u0219i \u00een viitor, sigur \u2013 \u0219i eventual cu o r\u0103u-mascat\u0103\u2026 pl\u0103cere\/bucurie. Este cinic\u0103 aceast\u0103 abordare a problemei? Este, fire\u0219te; dar ce-i putem face dac\u0103\u2026 este, exist\u0103 adic\u0103?<br \/>\n\uf0d8 Paradox\u2026 dup\u0103 paradox. De c\u00e2te ori suntem ferici\u021bi suntem \u0219i buni; dar \u2013 ca \u0219i cum ar dori cineva s\u0103 ne \u00eentoarc\u0103 de pe drumul cel bun \u2013 nu suntem ferici\u021bi ori de c\u00e2te ori suntem \u0219i buni. Ce am zis mai \u00eenainte pare a fi un drum cu sens unic. Oare \u2013 nu cumva \u2013 pentru stupidul motiv c\u0103, \u00een via\u021b\u0103, pentru orice fapt\u0103 bun\u0103, suntem \u00eenc\u0103rca\u021bi la pre\u021b (un fel de TVA pentru exces de moralitate?); ceea ce ne \u201elecuie\u0219te\u201d\u2026 pe veci, s\u0103 mai facem fapte bune?<br \/>\n\uf0d8 Destinul tragic al \u201eunora\u201d (se pare c\u0103 mai ales al femeilor) ar fi\u2026 s\u0103 trezeasc\u0103 \u00een al\u021bii impulsul de a crea genialit\u0103\u021bi\/capodopere. Ce s-ar putea comenta? Mai nimic, fiindc\u0103 nici \u201eexperien\u021ba\u201d cotidian\u0103 a vie\u021bii nu arat\u0103 altceva. Ce ne facem \u00eens\u0103\u2026 c\u0103 imediat vine secven\u021ba paradoxal\u0103, anume c\u0103 aceia\u0219i \u201estimulatori enzimatici\u201d se dovedesc malefici\u2026 \u00eempiedic\u00e2nd \u00eemplinirea \u2013 \u00een fapt \u2013 a genialit\u0103\u021bii\/capodoperelor. Asta ce mai este? Destin? Cinism?<br \/>\n\uf0d8 Tragic\u0103 nedreptate ar fi comis\u2026 cineva, atunci c\u00e2nd a h\u0103r\u0103zit, \u00een spe\u021ba uman\u0103, ca frumuse\u021bea adev\u0103rat\u0103 a chipului s\u0103 se ispr\u0103veasc\u0103 \u201eacolo\u201d (adic\u0103 la acela) unde intelectualizarea (de ce nu \u00een\u021belepciunea?) st\u0103p\u00e2ne\u0219te \u0219i gr\u0103ie\u0219te prin tr\u0103s\u0103turile celui \u00een cauz\u0103. S\u0103 fie de vin\u0103 faptul c\u0103 spiritualizarea \u00eentru \u00een\u021belepciune (inteligen\u021b\u0103) implic\u0103 o trudnic\u0103 crispare a chipului \u2013 reflex al \u00eencord\u0103rii fiin\u021bei \u00eentregi \u2013 \u00eendep\u0103rt\u00e2nd astfel de pe chip lini\u0219tea seren\u0103, cu care rimeaz\u0103\u2026 frumuse\u021bea? Sau, poate, fiindc\u0103 intelectul are \u2013 \u00een heraldica lui \u2013 o concentrare a tr\u0103irii (unii \u00eei zic exagerare), care perturb\u0103 echilibrul armonic al oric\u0103rei frumuse\u021bi? Mai simplu vorbind, s\u0103 fie \u00een\u021belep\u021bii\u2026ne-frumo\u0219i?<br \/>\n\uf0d8 Legea unui anume fel de paradox, care domin\u0103 \u00een acest secol pe care ne preg\u0103tim s\u0103-l trecem \u00een arhiva trecutului, ne-a f\u0103cut, pe tot mai mul\u021bi, s\u0103 ne jen\u0103m cumplit\u2026 de propriile virtu\u021bi. \u0218i asta fiindc\u0103 \u00een via\u021b\u0103 ne \u00eent\u00e2lnim \u2013 tot mai rar, la tot mai pu\u021bini semeni \u2013 cu virtu\u021bile. Lege\u2026 a devenit imoralitatea, p\u0103catul \u0219i m\u00e2r\u0219\u0103via. Iar, cum ne place s\u0103 fim la fel ca ceilal\u021bi \u2013 respectiv s\u0103 nu ie\u0219im din gloat\u0103 \u2013 ne jen\u0103m s\u0103 mai p\u0103rem cuiva\u2026 virtuo\u0219i. Cu vremea, ajungem s\u0103 pierdem chiar exerci\u021biul virtu\u021bii, al cinstei \u0219i al moralit\u0103\u021bii. A\u0219a se face c\u0103 \u00eens\u0103\u0219i conduita fireasc\u0103, cea \u201e de toate zilele\u201d, ajunge s\u0103 fie ne-fireasc\u0103, afectat\u0103, firescul r\u0103m\u00e2n\u00e2nd, dar \u0219i devenind, prin singularizarea implement\u0103rii \u00een existen\u021ba curent\u0103, o biat\u0103 excep\u021bie\u2026 virtuoas\u0103. Iat\u0103 cum c\u0103dem din paradox \u00een paradox; ne jen\u0103m s\u0103 ne recunoa\u0219tem virtu\u021bile \u00een spe\u021b\u0103 conduita fireasc\u0103, neafectat\u0103), trezindu-ne la un moment dat c\u0103 \u00eenlocuim firescul cu afectarea, cu pre\u021biozitatea. Pentru ca \u00een final \u2013 printr-un fel de extrapolare \u2013 fiindc\u0103 acest ciclu al dec\u0103derii duce la un anume final \u2013 ajungem s\u0103 echival\u0103m con\u0219tiin\u021ba cu\u2026 la\u0219itatea, con\u0219tiin\u021ba r\u0103m\u00e2n\u00e2nd doar o deplorabil\u0103 \u201efirm\u0103\u201d plasat\u0103 la intrarea \u00een edificiul fiin\u021bei noastre, a\u0219a cum \u00eei tr\u0103im existen\u021ba; o firm\u0103 \u00een\u0219el\u0103toare, bine\u00een\u021beles, care corespunde \u201einteriorului\u201d\u2026 dubios ca \u0219i firma.<br \/>\n\uf0d8 De c\u00e2nd omului a \u00eenceput s\u0103-i fie fric\u0103 de el \u00eensu\u0219i \u2013 refuz\u00e2nd a se mai cunoa\u0219te \u0219i arunc\u00e2nd \u00een sub(in)con\u0219tient tot ce nu-i convine \u2013 spaima fa\u021b\u0103 de ob\u0219te\/societate a luat locul moralei, \u0219i prin asem\u0103nare \u2013 frica de Dumnezeu a luat locul iubirii, devenind \u201emotiva\u021bia\u201d religiei, a\u0219a cum este \u201epriceput\u0103\u201d ea azi, de c\u0103tre o mare parte din omenire. Toate aceste metamorfoze\/sublim\u0103ri defulante, colorate afectiv \u201e\u00een albastru\u201d, de c\u0103tre sistemul nostru op\u021bional\/evaluant, nu r\u0103m\u00e2n \u00eens\u0103 nesanc\u021bionate; astfel c\u0103 reful\u0103rile, \u00eenghesuite \u00een subsolul persoanei, clocesc intens \u0219i r\u0103bufnesc \u00een \u201evia\u021ba\u201d din care au fost izgonite, cu o neb\u0103nuit\u0103 violen\u021b\u0103 \u0219i putere de dinamizare a ac\u021biunilor. Tot ce cloce\u0219te \u00een m i n t e , r\u0103bufne\u0219te \u00een trup; dar noi n-am \u00een\u021beles, \u00eenc\u0103, acest mecanism, cu destul\u0103 claritate. Trupul p\u0103c\u0103tuie\u0219te odat\u0103, \u0219i cu asta se stinge \u201eenergia\u201d reac\u021biei. Sufletul, \u00eens\u0103, p\u0103c\u0103tuie\u0219te \u00eentr-un \u201elan\u021b\u201d prelung, seriat, prev\u0103zut cu prea mult\u0103 perfidie. Trupul se purific\u0103\u2026 p\u0103c\u0103tuind; sufletul\u2026 niciodat\u0103, f\u0103r\u0103 \u201esublimare\u201d De ispit\u0103 nu scapi dec\u00e2t supun\u00e2ndu-i-te. \u00cencerc\u00e2nd s\u0103 i te opui , \u00ee\u021bi otr\u0103ve\u0219ti sufletul\u2026 nu cu altceva, dec\u00e2t cu dorul dup\u0103 ceea ce ai refuzat odat\u0103. Toate acestea se petrec deoarece at\u00e2t minunile c\u00e2t \u0219i p\u0103catele se produc \u00een mintea omului \u0219i nu \u00een trupul lui. Chiar \u0219i Biblia ne \u00eenva\u021b\u0103 \u2013 \u00eentr-un mod apropiat de cele mai sus expuse \u2013 c\u0103 nu e p\u0103cat \u201eceea ce bagi \u00een gur\u0103, ci ceea ce sco\u021bi\u2026\u201d(vorbe, idei); \u0219i tot Biblia (Romani, VII, 15-24) zice c\u0103 legea p\u0103catului e mai \u201etare\u201d dec\u00e2t dorin\u021ba cea bun\u0103 a omului. S\u0103 nu se cread\u0103 c\u0103 fac apologia p\u0103catului; \u00eencerc doar motivarea neputin\u021bei de a-i rezista\u2026 f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103-l experiezi (?!) \u00eentr-un fel oarecare. Ar putea fi vorba de cinism \u0219i \u00eentr-o astfel de optic\u0103?<br \/>\n\uf0d8 Oameni buni (buni, oare?), fi\u021bi \u2013 m\u0103car odat\u0103 \u2013 sinceri \u0219i recunoa\u0219te\u021bi c\u0103 d\u0103rui\u021bi, cu elan, mai ales\u2026 ceea ce nu v\u0103 trebuie; n-am zis ce v\u0103 prisose\u0219te, fiindc\u0103 dac\u0103-ar fi dup\u0103 noi, niciodat\u0103 nu ne-ar prisosi\u2026 nimic, indiferent \u201ec\u00e2t\u201d am avea, din orice. O alt\u0103 fa\u021b\u0103 a problemei ar fi s\u0103 d\u0103ruie\u0219ti din ceea ce abia dac\u0103 ai, c\u00e2t de c\u00e2t. Superlativul, \u00eens\u0103, este s\u0103 d\u0103ruie\u0219ti\u2026 din ceea ce nu ai (vezi Michaux \u0219i Steinhardt), paradox prin care d\u0103ruind ceea ce nu ai, dob\u00e2nde\u0219ti \u0219i tu. S\u0103 nu fim sceptici, se poate \u0219i a\u0219a. Despre partea ini\u021bial\u0103 a paragrafului, adic\u0103 \u201edarul din ce nu-\u021bi trebuie\u201d, voi zice doar o vorb\u0103, anume c\u0103 un astfel de dar este \u201epr\u0103pastia generozit\u0103\u021bii\/d\u0103rniciei.<br \/>\n\uf0d8 Personalit\u0103\u021bile\/oamenii de excep\u021bie \u2013 nu neap\u0103rat geniile \u2013 ascund o discrepan\u021b\u0103 decep\u021bionant\u0103 \u00eentre ceea ce f a c (motivul individualiz\u0103rii, genialit\u0103\u021bii) \u0219i ceea ce sunt (conduita zilnic\u0103). Iar, ca o inechitabil\u0103 compensare, mediocrit\u0103\u021bile domeniilor pe care lumea le divinizeaz\u0103 (domeniile, nu mediocrit\u0103\u021bile sunt divinizate!), au o comportare cotidian\u0103 plin\u0103 de farmec, apetisant\u0103, care cucere\u0219te \u0219i impresioneaz\u0103. Despre o atare excep\u021bie \u2013 s\u0103 l\u0103s\u0103m de pild\u0103 un poet des\u0103v\u00e2r\u0219it \u2013 un critic mali\u021bios spunea c\u00e2ndva c\u0103 pune \u00een opera scris\u0103 poezia pe care nu se pricepe deloc s-o \u201etr\u0103iasc\u0103\u201d \u00een via\u021b\u0103. La antipod se afl\u0103 poetul mediocru care \u201etr\u0103ie\u0219te\u201d \u00een cotidian farmecul poeziei pe care nu e \u00een stare s-o scrie. \u00cen atare conjunctur\u0103 de situa\u021bii, s\u0103 fie vorba tot de o abordare cinic\u0103 a interpret\u0103rii? S\u0103 fie uneori chiar \u0219i destinul\u2026 cinic?<br \/>\n\uf0d8 Pentru omul contemporan \u2013 sufocat de rev\u0103rsarea informa\u021bional\u0103 \u2013 la care este supus printr-o violent\u0103 agresiune mintal\u0103 \u2013 a devenit o autentic\u0103 dram\u0103 paradoxul\/dilem\u0103 de a \u0219ti mai mult dec\u00e2t crezi c\u0103 \u0219tii (nu invers precum se \u00eent\u00e2mpl\u0103 de obicei), vis-\u00e0-vis de ipostaza de a \u0219ti mai pu\u021bin dec\u00e2t ai vrea (sau ar trebui) s\u0103 \u0219tii. A\u0219a cum pe unii \u00eei deprim\u0103 dilematica incertitudine \u2013 mai \u00eenainte formulat\u0103 \u2013 pe mine m\u0103 n\u0103uce\u0219te, de-a binelea; \u00eenot \u2013 cu disperare \u2013 \u00een oceanul informa\u021bional care m\u0103 \u00eenconjoar\u0103, numit via\u021ba mea intelectual\u0103 fireasc\u0103, f\u0103r\u0103 a \u0219ti dac\u0103 \u0219tiu tot ce-ar trebui s\u0103 \u0219tiu. Singura certitudine pe care o am \u2013 acum la peste \u0219ase decenii de \u201eprezen\u021b\u0103\u201d \u00een via\u021b\u0103 \u2013 fiind aceea c\u0103 nu cred, \u0219i nici nu simt, c\u0103 ar fi prea mare diferen\u021b\u0103 \u00eentre ceea ce \u0219tiu \u0219i ceea ce \u2026 cred c\u0103 \u0219tiu. \u00centreaga via\u021b\u0103 am consacrat-o acestui realism\u2026 lucid, autoevaluant.<br \/>\n\uf0d8 De\u0219i tr\u0103im \u00eentr-o epoc\u0103 \u00een care imagina\u021bia, utopiile \u0219i fic\u021biunile ne asalteaz\u0103 existen\u021ba \u0219i preocup\u0103rile, ne r\u0103m\u00e2ne totu\u0219i o m\u00e2ng\u00e2iere; anume aceea c\u0103 adev\u0103ratul mister al lumii \u0219i vie\u021bii se afl\u0103 \u00een cele v\u0103zute \u0219i nu \u00een cele \u00eenchipuite. De aceea nu pot pricepe de ce ne captiveaz\u0103 at\u00e2t de mult produc\u021biile \u201es.f.\u201d care, \u00een nici un caz, nu pot dep\u0103\u0219i, \u00een materie de mister, ceea ce ni se \u00eent\u00e2mpl\u0103 nou\u0103 clip\u0103 de clip\u0103 \u0219i, pentru care mister, nu avem explica\u021bii plauzibile\u2026 nici m\u0103car 5%. C\u00e2nd vom avea o viziune pragmatic\u0103 fa\u021b\u0103 de \u201emisterele\u201d tr\u0103ite, \u0219i c\u00e2nd vom renun\u021ba s\u0103 ne mai drog\u0103m cu mistere \u201eartificiale\u201d\u2026 create de ne\u0219tiin\u021ba noastr\u0103?<br \/>\n\uf0d8 A trebuit s\u0103 schimb prefixul v\u00e2rstei pentru a \u00een\u021belege tot ce m-a st\u00e2njenit mai mult, de-a lungul anilor\u2026, gre\u0219elile mele din trecut: gre\u0219eli cu obsesia c\u0103rora\u2026 am \u00eenceput s\u0103 \u00eemb\u0103tr\u00e2nesc. C\u00e2t de mult a\u0219 vrea s\u0103 fiu crezut atunci c\u00e2nd afirma c\u0103\u2026 dac\u0103 vrei s\u0103 \u00eentinere\u0219ti, cu adev\u0103rat, n-ai dec\u00e2t o singur\u0103 cale, s\u0103 repe\u021bi nebuniile tinere\u021bii; nu po\u021bi, \u00eenseamn\u0103 c\u0103 nici s\u0103 mai \u201e\u00eentinere\u0219ti\u201d nu po\u021bi. Fiindc\u0103\u2026 aten\u021bie, nu spun vorb\u0103 f\u0103r\u0103 acoperire, marea tain\u0103 a vie\u021bii \u00een temeiul c\u0103reia \u201eprivim\u201d spre tinere\u021be, este aceea c\u0103 singurul lucru pe care nu-l regret\u0103m niciodat\u0103, \u00een ad\u00e2nca noastr\u0103 intimitate\u2026 sunt \u201egre\u0219elile\u201d. R\u0103m\u00e2nem, tot restul vie\u021bii \u2013 pentru ele \u2013 cu o duioas\u0103 nostalgie. Mai au \u0219i al\u021bii astfel de sentimentalisme fa\u021b\u0103 de un anume trecut al lor? \u00cen ceea ce m\u0103 prive\u0219te nu sunt convins c\u0103 am reu\u0219it s\u0103 scormonesc destul de ad\u00e2nc \u201e\u00een mine\u201d pentru a putea g\u0103si justific\u0103ri ra\u021bionale. Poate c\u0103 nici nu le simt nevoia. Este destul c\u0103 eu simt tot ce am spus; n-am nevoie s\u0103 \u0219tiu (cu ra\u021biunea) dac\u0103 e a\u0219a, sau altfel.<\/p>\n<p>* * *<\/p>\n<p>Fiindc\u0103 am f\u0103cut deja o m\u0103rturisire, am s\u0103 \u00eenchei tot cu o m\u0103rturisire. Op\u021biunea cinic\u0103 a evalu\u0103rilor a fost o prezent\u0103 mereu \u00een via\u021ba mea. A fost tenta\u021bia cea mai constant\u0103 din g\u00e2ndurile mele, \u00eempotriva c\u0103reia am \u00eencercat \u2013 mai pu\u021bin constant dec\u00e2t mi-a stat ea \u00een cale \u2013 s\u0103 rezist. M\u0103rturisesc \u00eens\u0103 c\u0103 nu-mi dau seama dac\u0103 am f\u0103cut acest lucru destul\u2026 sau prea pu\u021bin; sunt sigur \u00eens\u0103 c\u0103 \u201eprea mult\u201d nu l-am f\u0103cut, \u00een nici un caz\u2026 dar nici n-am dorit s\u0103 pe\u021besc acest \u201eprea mult\u201d. Morala din mine, pe care mi-am \u201ezidit-o\u201d singur, \u00eemi spune c\u0103 exact at\u00e2t. a \u0219i fost necesar; iar pentru viitor, poate c\u0103 nici m\u0103car at\u00e2t.<\/p>\n<p>Dixi et salvavi animam meam.<\/p>\n<p>R\u00e2mnicu S\u0103rat<br \/>\n\u00d3pus-ul unei singure<br \/>\nnop\u021bi, 27 oct. Ora 23<br \/>\np\u00e2n\u0103 la 28 oct. Ora 04<br \/>\nanul 1994<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>CINISM \u2013 UNICA TOXIN\u0102 BINEF\u0102C\u0102TOARE DIN ANUL 2002 MIC\u00a0 DISCURS\u00a0 DESPRE\u00a0 CINISM (BINE\u00a0 TEMPERAT) \u201eCinism\u2026 tu ispita a tuturor inteligen\u021belor\u201d<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":13,"featured_media":11138,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"colormag_page_container_layout":"default_layout","colormag_page_sidebar_layout":"default_layout","_monsterinsights_skip_tracking":false,"_uf_show_specific_survey":0,"_uf_disable_surveys":false,"ngg_post_thumbnail":0,"video_url":"","footnotes":""},"categories":[7,320],"tags":[],"aioseo_notices":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/ziarulderimnic.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11137"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/ziarulderimnic.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/ziarulderimnic.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ziarulderimnic.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/13"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ziarulderimnic.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=11137"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/ziarulderimnic.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11137\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":11253,"href":"https:\/\/ziarulderimnic.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11137\/revisions\/11253"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ziarulderimnic.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/11138"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/ziarulderimnic.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=11137"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ziarulderimnic.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=11137"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ziarulderimnic.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=11137"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}